Wednesday, 18 December 2013
Week 28 on Dr. Poon and the Beginning of the -15 lbs Journey
hello,
I've recently returned from my weigh-in. Here are the results, although they are not extremely fascinating.
June 6 June 26 July 17 July 31 Aug 14 Aug 28 Sept 11
Weight 188.6 178 175.6 173.4 171.5 169.0 165.5
BMI 32.4 30.6 30.1 29.8 29.4 29.0 28.4
Fat% 40.1 37.6 38.6 38.5 37.4 36.9 35.7
Fat Mass 75.6 67.0 67.8 66.8 64.0 62.5 59.0
TBW 82.5 81.5 79.0 78.0 78.5 78.0 78.0
Sept 25 Oct 9 Oct 23 Nov 6 Nov 20 Dec 18
Weight 167.0 162.6 161.6 160.8 159.6 159.0
BMI 28.7 27.9 27.7 27.6 27.4 27.3
Fat % 37.5 34.7 34.8 31.6 35.2 34.6
Fat Mass 62.5 56.4 56.2 50.8 56.2 55.0
TBW 76.5 77.8 77.2 80.6 75.6 76.2
Total results OVERALL
-29.6 total lbs
BMI is down 5.1 points
Body fat percentage is down 5.5 %
Body Fat Weight -20.6 lbs
Total Body water -6.3 lbs
My weight on my home scale this morning was 160.4. This is a new number for me. I do not have an another official weigh-in at the clinic for 3 weeks due to the holiday season. I have 11 weeks before my birthday. I have a goal of losing 15 lbs by then. Therefore I should like to lose about 1.5 lbs per week. I feel that is a very reasonable goal. But it will take effort and commitment. But I am ready to achieve it.
Breakfast- 1 egg and egg white with Allegro cheddar cheese
Lunch- baby spinach with Green Goddess dressing
snacks- 1 sugar-free Reese peanut butter cup and approx. 10 sugar free jelly beans
As you can probably tell, I splurged today at the Dr. Poon's clinic store. I bought several 'treats' to help me stay on track and committed over the holidays. I have no doubt that the holidays will have temptations but so long as I have my own low-carb options to eat I know I will be able to stay on track. The trick will be to only eat them when I truly would like to have a treat and not because I am bored and emotional.
Jana
Tuesday, 17 December 2013
Broken Hearted
hello,
I'm feeling broken hearted. I was unable to make it to the clinic today for my pregnancy blood test because of bad weather. But my period arrived this afternoon and brought an end to my hopes of being pregnant. I am trying so hard to keep strong, to keep my chin up and to carry on, but it's so hard.
I don't know how to put this disappointment behind me and move forward. I don't want to allow it to ruin the holiday season. The moment I compose myself something triggers me and I am in tears once again.
I intend to proceed by putting everything I have into working on myself. I have quite a bit of work to do. I thought that I was an optimist, but the gloomy thoughts in my head are proving to me that I still have a lot of work to do on my self-talk. I need to revisit some books I've read over the years that have helped with positive thinking. I also plan to not turn down any invitations. I know I need to get out and enjoy life and not dwell in my self-pitty. I also need to laugh. I will try to seek out humor and comedy.
So it's time to set a new goal. I would like very much to weigh 145 lbs on my 35th birthday in March. I am going to strive to attain this goal and welcome the distraction that it will hopefully bring. Fittingly I have a Dr. Poon weigh-in tomorrow. I won't have great results but I don't think I have gained anything this month since my last weigh-in, and considering the month I have had I celebrate this as a victory.
I need strength to get me through this latest disappointment.
I will see you tomorrow with my weigh-in results.
Good night,
Jana
I'm feeling broken hearted. I was unable to make it to the clinic today for my pregnancy blood test because of bad weather. But my period arrived this afternoon and brought an end to my hopes of being pregnant. I am trying so hard to keep strong, to keep my chin up and to carry on, but it's so hard.
I don't know how to put this disappointment behind me and move forward. I don't want to allow it to ruin the holiday season. The moment I compose myself something triggers me and I am in tears once again.
I intend to proceed by putting everything I have into working on myself. I have quite a bit of work to do. I thought that I was an optimist, but the gloomy thoughts in my head are proving to me that I still have a lot of work to do on my self-talk. I need to revisit some books I've read over the years that have helped with positive thinking. I also plan to not turn down any invitations. I know I need to get out and enjoy life and not dwell in my self-pitty. I also need to laugh. I will try to seek out humor and comedy.
So it's time to set a new goal. I would like very much to weigh 145 lbs on my 35th birthday in March. I am going to strive to attain this goal and welcome the distraction that it will hopefully bring. Fittingly I have a Dr. Poon weigh-in tomorrow. I won't have great results but I don't think I have gained anything this month since my last weigh-in, and considering the month I have had I celebrate this as a victory.
I need strength to get me through this latest disappointment.
I will see you tomorrow with my weigh-in results.
Good night,
Jana
Monday, 16 December 2013
Fertility and Weight Loss Emotional Roller Coaster
hello everyone,
I dropped off the face of the world. I'm back. I have been such an emotional wreck this past month. To catch us up. I did a cycle of fertility treatments. I ended up cancelling my last Dr. Poon weigh-in because as fate would have it, the appointment conflicted with my fertility 'procedure'. I did however step on the scale that day and I believe I would have been 'up' about 3 pounds. I blame the 3 pounds on the daily injections of drugs, stress, and some poor food choices.
On Wednesday the 4th of December I had an IUI procedure done. Tomorrow, I will go for a blood test to see if we have successfully conceived. The past 2 weeks have been incredibly stressful and emotional. Trying to keep a positive attitude has proved to be incredibly difficult for me however I really am trying.
I have lost focus this past month in terms of the Dr. Poon diet. I remain up 3 lbs. I have a weigh-in this coming Wednesday and based on the results of my blood test tomorrow I will either be moving forward with the diet with a new commitment and a desperation to have something to focus on, or I will be proceeding as a pregnant woman who wants to eat healthfully for the baby or babies growing inside her. I pray its the latter of the 2 options and I ask one last time you also include me in your prayers. I have never wanted something so badly in all my life.
I will keep you posted.
Jana
I dropped off the face of the world. I'm back. I have been such an emotional wreck this past month. To catch us up. I did a cycle of fertility treatments. I ended up cancelling my last Dr. Poon weigh-in because as fate would have it, the appointment conflicted with my fertility 'procedure'. I did however step on the scale that day and I believe I would have been 'up' about 3 pounds. I blame the 3 pounds on the daily injections of drugs, stress, and some poor food choices.
On Wednesday the 4th of December I had an IUI procedure done. Tomorrow, I will go for a blood test to see if we have successfully conceived. The past 2 weeks have been incredibly stressful and emotional. Trying to keep a positive attitude has proved to be incredibly difficult for me however I really am trying.
I have lost focus this past month in terms of the Dr. Poon diet. I remain up 3 lbs. I have a weigh-in this coming Wednesday and based on the results of my blood test tomorrow I will either be moving forward with the diet with a new commitment and a desperation to have something to focus on, or I will be proceeding as a pregnant woman who wants to eat healthfully for the baby or babies growing inside her. I pray its the latter of the 2 options and I ask one last time you also include me in your prayers. I have never wanted something so badly in all my life.
I will keep you posted.
Jana
Friday, 29 November 2013
Friday
hello,
I must be losing my focus. I forgot to weigh first thing this morning. To be fair, I was distracted. My mom and step-dad dropped in early. So it wasn't until after they left, and after half a pot of coffee before I stepped on the scale. I assume I would've been a little less first thing.
My results this week:
Wed. Thurs Fri
Weight 164.0 163.2 163.2
bf% 38.4 37.4
w% 44.9 45.6
bflbs 62.6 61.0
tbw 73.2 74.4
So anyways, I did alright today. I could've done better but anyways, it is what it is. I tried.
Breakfast: 1 egg and egg white scrambled with 1 light babybell cheese
Lunch: 1 turkey sausage
dinner: stirfry (beef, green peppers, onion, mushroom, celery)
Snack: glass of wine (white - not allowed) and porkrinds
I really didn't want the glass of white wine but I gave into peer pressure. A friend came to visit today and brought it with him. I offered him some and he kept doing the "if you will have some with me". It was from a mutual friend' wedding. Anyways, I caved in effort to be a half decent hostess. I'm really not sure how else to handle that situation. I guess I could've just opened it, poured him a glass and refused to have any myself. I don't know. My other indiscretion today was that I added some high sodium seasoning to my pork rinds.
Tomorrow morning is another trip to the fertility centre. I'm hoping tomorrow does not cost anything. I'm getting so freaked out about money.
Anyways, I'm off to bed.
Good night, eat right
Jana
I must be losing my focus. I forgot to weigh first thing this morning. To be fair, I was distracted. My mom and step-dad dropped in early. So it wasn't until after they left, and after half a pot of coffee before I stepped on the scale. I assume I would've been a little less first thing.
My results this week:
Wed. Thurs Fri
Weight 164.0 163.2 163.2
bf% 38.4 37.4
w% 44.9 45.6
bflbs 62.6 61.0
tbw 73.2 74.4
So anyways, I did alright today. I could've done better but anyways, it is what it is. I tried.
Breakfast: 1 egg and egg white scrambled with 1 light babybell cheese
Lunch: 1 turkey sausage
dinner: stirfry (beef, green peppers, onion, mushroom, celery)
Snack: glass of wine (white - not allowed) and porkrinds
I really didn't want the glass of white wine but I gave into peer pressure. A friend came to visit today and brought it with him. I offered him some and he kept doing the "if you will have some with me". It was from a mutual friend' wedding. Anyways, I caved in effort to be a half decent hostess. I'm really not sure how else to handle that situation. I guess I could've just opened it, poured him a glass and refused to have any myself. I don't know. My other indiscretion today was that I added some high sodium seasoning to my pork rinds.
Tomorrow morning is another trip to the fertility centre. I'm hoping tomorrow does not cost anything. I'm getting so freaked out about money.
Anyways, I'm off to bed.
Good night, eat right
Jana
Thursday, 28 November 2013
Thursday
Hello,
This morning began with a coffee to go and an early morning trip to the fertility centre. I stepped on the scale before we left. My results so far this week:
Wed. Thurs
Weight 164.0 163.2
bf% 38.4
w% 44.9
bflbs 62.6
tbw 73.2
Our visit to the fertility centre was pretty straight forward. I did an ultra sound, blood test and spoke briefly to the nurse. The worst part of the visit was an increase in the amount of fertility drugs I need. It meant I had to pay 486.00 that was unexpected and unbudgeted. So I have been spending the entire day fretting about money and how I will cover everything that needs to be paid in the next few days. I KNOW things have a way of working out and all will be okay.
Breakfast: 1 egg and egg whites
Lunch: 1 deviled egg, babybell cheese (light)
Dinner: ground beef with taco seasoning, 6 olives
Feeling very tired today. I'm heading to bed now. Trying to quiet my mind and put all my worries away. Focus on positive thoughts. The universe really will provide for me. My finances will be protected. A baby will be given this cycle and all will be well. The universe has already provided me with a body that is nearly 30 lbs lighter to help me carry a baby. Everything is sure to fall into place.
Good night,
Jana
This morning began with a coffee to go and an early morning trip to the fertility centre. I stepped on the scale before we left. My results so far this week:
Wed. Thurs
Weight 164.0 163.2
bf% 38.4
w% 44.9
bflbs 62.6
tbw 73.2
Our visit to the fertility centre was pretty straight forward. I did an ultra sound, blood test and spoke briefly to the nurse. The worst part of the visit was an increase in the amount of fertility drugs I need. It meant I had to pay 486.00 that was unexpected and unbudgeted. So I have been spending the entire day fretting about money and how I will cover everything that needs to be paid in the next few days. I KNOW things have a way of working out and all will be okay.
Breakfast: 1 egg and egg whites
Lunch: 1 deviled egg, babybell cheese (light)
Dinner: ground beef with taco seasoning, 6 olives
Feeling very tired today. I'm heading to bed now. Trying to quiet my mind and put all my worries away. Focus on positive thoughts. The universe really will provide for me. My finances will be protected. A baby will be given this cycle and all will be well. The universe has already provided me with a body that is nearly 30 lbs lighter to help me carry a baby. Everything is sure to fall into place.
Good night,
Jana
Wednesday, 27 November 2013
Countdown to Weigh-in Wednesday
Hello,
Well here I am. I am ready to be transparent for the next 7 days because the scale is being unkind to me. I have so much going on right now that I am not going to beat myself up for the numbers. But just the same, keeping a daily record seems to help so-
My weight this morning was 164.0. I forgot to check all the other numbers. So I will do that tomorrow.
Breakfast: 1 egg and egg whites, scrambled
Lunch: 2 deviled eggs, babybell light cheese
Dinner: Asian salad, fish fillet
I have eaten reasonably well today. I drank lots of coffee, and about 1 litre of water.
I have begun taking fertility drugs. I have to inject them into my abdomen every evening. The drug is intended to increase the number of eggs that will mature so that when I am inseminated there are 'more targets to hit'. It should increase our odds of successfully getting pregnant this month. (It also increases our chances of having multiples ie, twins). I'm not sure if it is related to the drugs but I have been EXHAUSTED. I have next to no energy. All I want to do is sleep. The drug may also have something to do with few extra pounds on the scale. Also, my fertility specialist has REDUCED my thyroid medication. That may also have something to do with the fatigue and possibly the weight. I'm not sure.
The fertility issue is obviously stressful. I am trying to stay positive. I really cannot imagine it not working. I am however nervous about money. Everything is so expensive and I have stretched things fairly thin when it comes to covering all the expenses. So there is that stress. There is also the stress of the countless doctors appointments. For those of you unfamiliar with fertility treatments- we have to go to the doctors every other day for blood test and ultrasound. Closer to ovulation we will need to go everyday.
So as for my weightloss journey, it has been a nice distraction for the past few months from the fertility journey that started it all. But for the time being, I think I am going to be a little distracted from the weightloss with my primary focus being back on the fertility. Please send some positive vibes out into the universe on my husband's and my behalf- we so badly would like to become pregnant.
Good night, eat right
Jana
Well here I am. I am ready to be transparent for the next 7 days because the scale is being unkind to me. I have so much going on right now that I am not going to beat myself up for the numbers. But just the same, keeping a daily record seems to help so-
My weight this morning was 164.0. I forgot to check all the other numbers. So I will do that tomorrow.
Breakfast: 1 egg and egg whites, scrambled
Lunch: 2 deviled eggs, babybell light cheese
Dinner: Asian salad, fish fillet
I have eaten reasonably well today. I drank lots of coffee, and about 1 litre of water.
I have begun taking fertility drugs. I have to inject them into my abdomen every evening. The drug is intended to increase the number of eggs that will mature so that when I am inseminated there are 'more targets to hit'. It should increase our odds of successfully getting pregnant this month. (It also increases our chances of having multiples ie, twins). I'm not sure if it is related to the drugs but I have been EXHAUSTED. I have next to no energy. All I want to do is sleep. The drug may also have something to do with few extra pounds on the scale. Also, my fertility specialist has REDUCED my thyroid medication. That may also have something to do with the fatigue and possibly the weight. I'm not sure.
The fertility issue is obviously stressful. I am trying to stay positive. I really cannot imagine it not working. I am however nervous about money. Everything is so expensive and I have stretched things fairly thin when it comes to covering all the expenses. So there is that stress. There is also the stress of the countless doctors appointments. For those of you unfamiliar with fertility treatments- we have to go to the doctors every other day for blood test and ultrasound. Closer to ovulation we will need to go everyday.
So as for my weightloss journey, it has been a nice distraction for the past few months from the fertility journey that started it all. But for the time being, I think I am going to be a little distracted from the weightloss with my primary focus being back on the fertility. Please send some positive vibes out into the universe on my husband's and my behalf- we so badly would like to become pregnant.
Good night, eat right
Jana
Wednesday, 20 November 2013
Week 24 Results
hello folks-
So I'm hoping that if you are reading this than I am really hoping that you did NOT read my last post. It would seem that perhaps the scale in the clinic is not all that accurate or reliable. I mean sure, overall I think it's fine. But I think something happened with my last weigh-in that gave me over the top fat loss readings that I believe were likely inaccurate.
Here are my results so far and you can probably see what I mean.
June 6 June 26 July 17 July 31 Aug 14 Aug 28 Sept 11
Weight 188.6 178 175.6 173.4 171.5 169.0 165.5
BMI 32.4 30.6 30.1 29.8 29.4 29.0 28.4
Fat% 40.1 37.6 38.6 38.5 37.4 36.9 35.7
Fat Mass 75.6 67.0 67.8 66.8 64.0 62.5 59.0
TBW 82.5 81.5 79.0 78.0 78.5 78.0 78.0
Sept 25 Oct 9 Oct 23 Nov 6 Nov 20
Weight 167.0 162.6 161.6 160.8 159.6
BMI 28.7 27.9 27.7 27.6 27.4
Fat % 37.5 34.7 34.8 31.6 35.2
Fat Mass 62.5 56.4 56.2 50.8 56.2
TBW 76.5 77.8 77.2 80.6 75.6
So not to dwell so much on the numbers- but I think it's fairly clear that my results on November 6 probably were not all that accurate. My period is due in 2 days and I can feel that my body is retaining water. My breasts are tender etc. So I find it unlikely that I have lost 5 lbs of water weight and yet gained 6 lbs of fat all while losing 1.2 lbs overall on the scale. So anyways, I'm just going to choose to ignore the rest of details and focus on the fact that I am down another pound. It's a small victory but a victory none the less. And hey! I am in the 150s!!!
I bought a few new Poon friendly products today. I tried the Lily's chocolate biscotti. Yum! I also bought some pork rinds. I didn't think they would be my thing, but I just totally binged on them and they are a great alternative to potato chips.
Well, it's been a long day. My husband and I have a busy month ahead. We are starting a course of fertility treatments. Please say a prayer for us. I want so badly to be a mother.
Good night, eat right!
Jana
So I'm hoping that if you are reading this than I am really hoping that you did NOT read my last post. It would seem that perhaps the scale in the clinic is not all that accurate or reliable. I mean sure, overall I think it's fine. But I think something happened with my last weigh-in that gave me over the top fat loss readings that I believe were likely inaccurate.
Here are my results so far and you can probably see what I mean.
June 6 June 26 July 17 July 31 Aug 14 Aug 28 Sept 11
Weight 188.6 178 175.6 173.4 171.5 169.0 165.5
BMI 32.4 30.6 30.1 29.8 29.4 29.0 28.4
Fat% 40.1 37.6 38.6 38.5 37.4 36.9 35.7
Fat Mass 75.6 67.0 67.8 66.8 64.0 62.5 59.0
TBW 82.5 81.5 79.0 78.0 78.5 78.0 78.0
Sept 25 Oct 9 Oct 23 Nov 6 Nov 20
Weight 167.0 162.6 161.6 160.8 159.6
BMI 28.7 27.9 27.7 27.6 27.4
Fat % 37.5 34.7 34.8 31.6 35.2
Fat Mass 62.5 56.4 56.2 50.8 56.2
TBW 76.5 77.8 77.2 80.6 75.6
So not to dwell so much on the numbers- but I think it's fairly clear that my results on November 6 probably were not all that accurate. My period is due in 2 days and I can feel that my body is retaining water. My breasts are tender etc. So I find it unlikely that I have lost 5 lbs of water weight and yet gained 6 lbs of fat all while losing 1.2 lbs overall on the scale. So anyways, I'm just going to choose to ignore the rest of details and focus on the fact that I am down another pound. It's a small victory but a victory none the less. And hey! I am in the 150s!!!
I bought a few new Poon friendly products today. I tried the Lily's chocolate biscotti. Yum! I also bought some pork rinds. I didn't think they would be my thing, but I just totally binged on them and they are a great alternative to potato chips.
Well, it's been a long day. My husband and I have a busy month ahead. We are starting a course of fertility treatments. Please say a prayer for us. I want so badly to be a mother.
Good night, eat right!
Jana
Wednesday, 6 November 2013
Week 22 Dr Poon Results
hello!
Wow, what a weigh-in day! I'm surprised with my results today. I was 161.8 this morning on my home scale which is a new number for me! I figured I would be down about a pound at my in-office weigh-in this morning. So anyways, here are my in- office results to date:
June 6 June 26 July 17 July 31 Aug 14 Aug 28 Sept 11
Weight 188.6 178 175.6 173.4 171.5 169.0 165.5
BMI 32.4 30.6 30.1 29.8 29.4 29.0 28.4
Fat% 40.1 37.6 38.6 38.5 37.4 36.9 35.7
Fat Mass 75.6 67.0 67.8 66.8 64.0 62.5 59.0
TBW 82.5 81.5 79.0 78.0 78.5 78.0 78.0
Sept 25 Oct 9 Oct 23 Nov 6
Weight 167.0 162.6 161.6 160.8
BMI 28.7 27.9 27.7 27.6
Fat % 37.5 34.7 34.8 31.6
Fat Mass 62.5 56.4 56.2 50.8
TBW 76.5 77.8 77.2 80.6
Total Results since Last weigh-in:
-0.8 total lbs
BMI is down 0.1 points
Body fat percentage is down -3.2%
Body Fat Weight -5.4 lbs!!!
Total Body water +3.4lbs
Total results OVERALL
-27.8 total lbs
BMI is down 4.8 points
Body fat percentage is down 8.5 %
Body Fat Weight -24.8 lbs
Total Body water -1.9 lbs
So I'm very pleased with my weigh-in results today. They were unexpected. I had no idea that my body fat had come down so significantly. It was such a pleasant surprise. I think I am within 10 lbs of my goal weight. Once my weight is about between 150 and 146 my BMI will be in the 25 range. I'm getting close and that is very exciting for me. I'm very excited that my body fat percentage has dropped to 31.6!
So the journey continues. I have a ways to go yet, and I need to maintain my focus. My husband and I are going away this weekend. I plan to enjoy myself. I am going to try to avoid caesars. Perhaps if I stick to drinking wine I won't have the water retention that I so often experience. But I do love caesars so I am not sure what will happen. Either way, whatever happens this weekend I will get back on track the moment we arrive home and keep striving for a BMI of 25. I'll get there.
Jana
Wow, what a weigh-in day! I'm surprised with my results today. I was 161.8 this morning on my home scale which is a new number for me! I figured I would be down about a pound at my in-office weigh-in this morning. So anyways, here are my in- office results to date:
June 6 June 26 July 17 July 31 Aug 14 Aug 28 Sept 11
Weight 188.6 178 175.6 173.4 171.5 169.0 165.5
BMI 32.4 30.6 30.1 29.8 29.4 29.0 28.4
Fat% 40.1 37.6 38.6 38.5 37.4 36.9 35.7
Fat Mass 75.6 67.0 67.8 66.8 64.0 62.5 59.0
TBW 82.5 81.5 79.0 78.0 78.5 78.0 78.0
Sept 25 Oct 9 Oct 23 Nov 6
Weight 167.0 162.6 161.6 160.8
BMI 28.7 27.9 27.7 27.6
Fat % 37.5 34.7 34.8 31.6
Fat Mass 62.5 56.4 56.2 50.8
TBW 76.5 77.8 77.2 80.6
Total Results since Last weigh-in:
-0.8 total lbs
BMI is down 0.1 points
Body fat percentage is down -3.2%
Body Fat Weight -5.4 lbs!!!
Total Body water +3.4lbs
Total results OVERALL
-27.8 total lbs
BMI is down 4.8 points
Body fat percentage is down 8.5 %
Body Fat Weight -24.8 lbs
Total Body water -1.9 lbs
So I'm very pleased with my weigh-in results today. They were unexpected. I had no idea that my body fat had come down so significantly. It was such a pleasant surprise. I think I am within 10 lbs of my goal weight. Once my weight is about between 150 and 146 my BMI will be in the 25 range. I'm getting close and that is very exciting for me. I'm very excited that my body fat percentage has dropped to 31.6!
So the journey continues. I have a ways to go yet, and I need to maintain my focus. My husband and I are going away this weekend. I plan to enjoy myself. I am going to try to avoid caesars. Perhaps if I stick to drinking wine I won't have the water retention that I so often experience. But I do love caesars so I am not sure what will happen. Either way, whatever happens this weekend I will get back on track the moment we arrive home and keep striving for a BMI of 25. I'll get there.
Jana
Tuesday, 5 November 2013
1 DAY...
Hello folks,
Well tomorrow is weigh-in day. I'm not expecting huge results. If I am lucky, a loss of a pound or so. Fingers crossed.
My numbers so far are:
-7 Days -6 Days -5 Days -1 Day
Weight 162.8 162.6 162.6 162.2
BF% 36.6 36.2 37.2 37.0
W% 46.6 46.5 45.8 45.9
Bflbs 59.6 58.8 60.4 60.0
TBW 75.6 75.6 74.5 74.4
As you can see from my posts, I got a little distracted this week. For the most part I stayed on track. I just had several late nights which left me less than motivated to blog.
I ate according to plan each day with the exception of Sunday evening when my husband chose a Chinese Buffet for dinner. I made reasonably Poon friendly choices. I ate mostly protein and salad. I avoided all carbohydrates such as egg rolls, rice etc. However my protein choices were often coated in batter, deep fried and covered in sodium and sugar rich sauces. I skipped the desserts all together. All in all, I di my best. The scale did go up Monday and Tuesday by a couple of pounds , but has come back down today.
On another note, my husband and I joined a co-ed hockey team!! I am so excited about it. We had our first game last night. I was terrible! I used to be a very good hockey player, but that was 15+ years ago. Now I am fat, out of shape and old. But I'm also proud of myself. If I were the Jana you first met back in June would be too self conscious to walk into a locker room full of men and start undressing. Don't get me wrong, I'm still modest, and changed my clothes as quickly and discreetly as possible, but at least it wasn't the most mortifying experience ever. I had just assumed that the girls would have their own change room. Not the case, and not the end of the world. I am a hurting woman today! Out of shape does not begin to describe the aches and pains and strains I'm feeling. But I am excited. I am going to get better, stronger, faster and it is going to be fun.
As for tomorrow's weigh-in, I'm not going to stress too much. I think I'll be down a little which is better than nothing.
Good night, eat right
Jana
Well tomorrow is weigh-in day. I'm not expecting huge results. If I am lucky, a loss of a pound or so. Fingers crossed.
My numbers so far are:
-7 Days -6 Days -5 Days -1 Day
Weight 162.8 162.6 162.6 162.2
BF% 36.6 36.2 37.2 37.0
W% 46.6 46.5 45.8 45.9
Bflbs 59.6 58.8 60.4 60.0
TBW 75.6 75.6 74.5 74.4
As you can see from my posts, I got a little distracted this week. For the most part I stayed on track. I just had several late nights which left me less than motivated to blog.
I ate according to plan each day with the exception of Sunday evening when my husband chose a Chinese Buffet for dinner. I made reasonably Poon friendly choices. I ate mostly protein and salad. I avoided all carbohydrates such as egg rolls, rice etc. However my protein choices were often coated in batter, deep fried and covered in sodium and sugar rich sauces. I skipped the desserts all together. All in all, I di my best. The scale did go up Monday and Tuesday by a couple of pounds , but has come back down today.
On another note, my husband and I joined a co-ed hockey team!! I am so excited about it. We had our first game last night. I was terrible! I used to be a very good hockey player, but that was 15+ years ago. Now I am fat, out of shape and old. But I'm also proud of myself. If I were the Jana you first met back in June would be too self conscious to walk into a locker room full of men and start undressing. Don't get me wrong, I'm still modest, and changed my clothes as quickly and discreetly as possible, but at least it wasn't the most mortifying experience ever. I had just assumed that the girls would have their own change room. Not the case, and not the end of the world. I am a hurting woman today! Out of shape does not begin to describe the aches and pains and strains I'm feeling. But I am excited. I am going to get better, stronger, faster and it is going to be fun.
As for tomorrow's weigh-in, I'm not going to stress too much. I think I'll be down a little which is better than nothing.
Good night, eat right
Jana
Friday, 1 November 2013
5 Days...
Hello
Brr, I'm cold and wet and ready for bed! It's not a very nice night out there! Overall today was a pretty good day. I strayed a little with some irresistible trail mix, just a small amount.
My numbers so far are:
-7 Days -6 Days -5 Days
Weight 162.8 162.6 162.6
BF% 36.6 36.2 37.2
W% 46.6 46.5 45.8
Bflbs 59.6 58.8 60.4
TBW 75.6 75.6 74.5
I was quite happy to see that the scale didn't go up after last night's Halloween cheat. But now that I do the math on the body fat percentages, I'm really not too sure what the real damage was. Those numbers are not all that reliable.
Breakfast- 2 eggs scrambled
Lunch- superfood salad with poppyseed dressing
Dinner- rotisserie chicken, superfood salad, laughing cow cheese
snack- trail mix
Diet Pepsi
I read a lot about weight loss in order to find motivation. A lot of the information out there is common knowledge, or at least some what intuitive. What I mean is, I think we all more or less know what we need to do in order to lose weight. We know we need to move more, eat less junk etc. Knowing and doing are two different things. I read this information, not because I don't know it, but because for me, it fires me up and motivates me. There is a lot of discussion about weighing oneself every day. Most people on the message boards say not to do it. They say put the scale away. Check weekly. Check only at in-office appointments. This does not work for me. I have struggled with my weight for years. One thing that I know to be true, is that my weight has only ever gone up when I have not monitored it regularly and closely. I'm sensible enough to know that fluctuations on the scale are normal. Fluctuations do not concern me or discourage me. I met a lot of women at Curves who did not want to be weighed and measured. We always encouraged these ladies to remember that you cannot manage what you do not measure. And for me, measuring every day keeps me accountable to myself. By journaling these numbers I can also celebrate the losses as they come. Were it not for these posts, I would feel as though I were not losing at all since my losses are so slow. It's not about weighing every day or not, but about keeping a level head. Its about monitoring the trends. Its about being accountable. I intend to keep myself accountable from here on out.
Good night, eat right
Jana
Brr, I'm cold and wet and ready for bed! It's not a very nice night out there! Overall today was a pretty good day. I strayed a little with some irresistible trail mix, just a small amount.
My numbers so far are:
-7 Days -6 Days -5 Days
Weight 162.8 162.6 162.6
BF% 36.6 36.2 37.2
W% 46.6 46.5 45.8
Bflbs 59.6 58.8 60.4
TBW 75.6 75.6 74.5
I was quite happy to see that the scale didn't go up after last night's Halloween cheat. But now that I do the math on the body fat percentages, I'm really not too sure what the real damage was. Those numbers are not all that reliable.
Breakfast- 2 eggs scrambled
Lunch- superfood salad with poppyseed dressing
Dinner- rotisserie chicken, superfood salad, laughing cow cheese
snack- trail mix
Diet Pepsi
I read a lot about weight loss in order to find motivation. A lot of the information out there is common knowledge, or at least some what intuitive. What I mean is, I think we all more or less know what we need to do in order to lose weight. We know we need to move more, eat less junk etc. Knowing and doing are two different things. I read this information, not because I don't know it, but because for me, it fires me up and motivates me. There is a lot of discussion about weighing oneself every day. Most people on the message boards say not to do it. They say put the scale away. Check weekly. Check only at in-office appointments. This does not work for me. I have struggled with my weight for years. One thing that I know to be true, is that my weight has only ever gone up when I have not monitored it regularly and closely. I'm sensible enough to know that fluctuations on the scale are normal. Fluctuations do not concern me or discourage me. I met a lot of women at Curves who did not want to be weighed and measured. We always encouraged these ladies to remember that you cannot manage what you do not measure. And for me, measuring every day keeps me accountable to myself. By journaling these numbers I can also celebrate the losses as they come. Were it not for these posts, I would feel as though I were not losing at all since my losses are so slow. It's not about weighing every day or not, but about keeping a level head. Its about monitoring the trends. Its about being accountable. I intend to keep myself accountable from here on out.
Good night, eat right
Jana
Thursday, 31 October 2013
6 days (Halloween)
Boo!
It's Halloween and I totally blew it. I blew it even before I started into the Halloween candy. I just plain blew it.
My morning weigh in was good. My numbers so far are:
-7 Days -6 Days
Weight 162.8 162.6
BF% 36.6 36.2
W% 46.6 46.5
Bflbs 59.6 58.8
TBW 75.6 75.6
I had a good breakfast, and okay lunch and then got a little too relaxed at dinner.
Breakfast- 2 eggs scrambled
Lunch- Asian salad
Dinner- Asian Salad, coleslaw and 2 Italian sausages loaded with sodium
As if the high sodium sausages were not bad enough, after supper we opened the Halloween candy. First, I opened a Laffy Taffy, took a small bite of the already bite-sized candy and passed the rest to my husband, afterall, "I just wanted a taste". I went on to do this with each flavor of the Laffy Taffy. Next was a Reese Peanut Butter Cup. Then I had another one. Then I needed to remember what Starburst taste like. Next was a Snickers and then a whole Laffy Taffy. Now, the 'old' Jana probably would have eaten 5x that amount and not felt at all guilty about it. So with that perspective, this was a victory. However, if I am being real with myself, this was a failure. I wanted to be strong enough to not desire these foods, and I was not.
My mood after eating all that sugar was not 'happy'. I'm not sure if it's the guilt or what it is, but I just feel bitchy and disappointed in myself. It's 10:30 pm now and Halloween is over. The next obstacle will be Christmas. It will always be something and I will have to dig deep and find a greater resolve. Tonight I will do my penance on my recumbent bike and hopefully burn off some of the excess energy before it gets stored as fat. As always, tomorrow is a new day. It's an opportunity to do better.
Good night, eat right
Jana
It's Halloween and I totally blew it. I blew it even before I started into the Halloween candy. I just plain blew it.
My morning weigh in was good. My numbers so far are:
-7 Days -6 Days
Weight 162.8 162.6
BF% 36.6 36.2
W% 46.6 46.5
Bflbs 59.6 58.8
TBW 75.6 75.6
I had a good breakfast, and okay lunch and then got a little too relaxed at dinner.
Breakfast- 2 eggs scrambled
Lunch- Asian salad
Dinner- Asian Salad, coleslaw and 2 Italian sausages loaded with sodium
As if the high sodium sausages were not bad enough, after supper we opened the Halloween candy. First, I opened a Laffy Taffy, took a small bite of the already bite-sized candy and passed the rest to my husband, afterall, "I just wanted a taste". I went on to do this with each flavor of the Laffy Taffy. Next was a Reese Peanut Butter Cup. Then I had another one. Then I needed to remember what Starburst taste like. Next was a Snickers and then a whole Laffy Taffy. Now, the 'old' Jana probably would have eaten 5x that amount and not felt at all guilty about it. So with that perspective, this was a victory. However, if I am being real with myself, this was a failure. I wanted to be strong enough to not desire these foods, and I was not.
My mood after eating all that sugar was not 'happy'. I'm not sure if it's the guilt or what it is, but I just feel bitchy and disappointed in myself. It's 10:30 pm now and Halloween is over. The next obstacle will be Christmas. It will always be something and I will have to dig deep and find a greater resolve. Tonight I will do my penance on my recumbent bike and hopefully burn off some of the excess energy before it gets stored as fat. As always, tomorrow is a new day. It's an opportunity to do better.
Good night, eat right
Jana
Wednesday, 30 October 2013
7 Days...
Hello,
I need you! weigh-in at Dr. Poon is 7 days from today. I need the accountability that journaling gives me to ensure I have a good weigh-in.
This morning was good. I reached a new number on my home scale. I need to keep going. I would be so pleased to see the 150s at my next in office weigh-in.
-7 Days
Weight 162.8
BF% 36.6
W% 46.6
Bflbs 59.6
TBW 75.6
I bought Dr. Poon's book at my last appointment. It is pretty heavy and technical reading. I haven't found it to be too helpful as yet. A lot of the information in the first half of the book is so detailed and technical that it is not very useful to me. The information in the second half of the book is interesting, but a lot of it is information I have already learned given my training at Curves. None the less, I am enjoying the book because knowledge is power. In my case it also provides motivation.
I have enjoyed a more relaxed week in terms of food and diet. I have not strayed too far from the plan but I have not been as stringent as I was the previous 2 weeks. I enjoyed a few glasses of wine and even went out for chicken wings with my husband. I'm pleased to say that my deviations did not result in a penalty on the scale.
It was my intention to eat clean for the next 7 days in preparation for my next weigh-in. I slipped up a little bit today though. I shared a small dish of trail mix with my husband while we watched Survivor. It was mostly nuts, but there were some raisons and M&Ms. I'm sure there are worse things out there to snack on. But even still, I wanted to be flawless today and I wasn't.
Breakfast- 2 eggs scrambled
Lunch- salad with Asian dressing
snack-2 laughing cow cheese, cucumber slices and 5 olives soaked in water
Supper- ground beef and Asian salad
snack- trail mix
I'm feeling very foggy in the brain. I'm not sure if it is the diet or my life style. I just feel like I am lacking in motivation and mood. I don't work outside the home right now and it may be that I don't have a lot of social interactions- I'm not quite sure what is going on with me. But I do feel 'off''.
Anyways, enough about me. I'm looking forward to tomorrow. I am going to get a lot accomplished and have a clean phase 1 day.
Good night, eat right
Jana
I need you! weigh-in at Dr. Poon is 7 days from today. I need the accountability that journaling gives me to ensure I have a good weigh-in.
This morning was good. I reached a new number on my home scale. I need to keep going. I would be so pleased to see the 150s at my next in office weigh-in.
-7 Days
Weight 162.8
BF% 36.6
W% 46.6
Bflbs 59.6
TBW 75.6
I bought Dr. Poon's book at my last appointment. It is pretty heavy and technical reading. I haven't found it to be too helpful as yet. A lot of the information in the first half of the book is so detailed and technical that it is not very useful to me. The information in the second half of the book is interesting, but a lot of it is information I have already learned given my training at Curves. None the less, I am enjoying the book because knowledge is power. In my case it also provides motivation.
I have enjoyed a more relaxed week in terms of food and diet. I have not strayed too far from the plan but I have not been as stringent as I was the previous 2 weeks. I enjoyed a few glasses of wine and even went out for chicken wings with my husband. I'm pleased to say that my deviations did not result in a penalty on the scale.
It was my intention to eat clean for the next 7 days in preparation for my next weigh-in. I slipped up a little bit today though. I shared a small dish of trail mix with my husband while we watched Survivor. It was mostly nuts, but there were some raisons and M&Ms. I'm sure there are worse things out there to snack on. But even still, I wanted to be flawless today and I wasn't.
Breakfast- 2 eggs scrambled
Lunch- salad with Asian dressing
snack-2 laughing cow cheese, cucumber slices and 5 olives soaked in water
Supper- ground beef and Asian salad
snack- trail mix
I'm feeling very foggy in the brain. I'm not sure if it is the diet or my life style. I just feel like I am lacking in motivation and mood. I don't work outside the home right now and it may be that I don't have a lot of social interactions- I'm not quite sure what is going on with me. But I do feel 'off''.
Anyways, enough about me. I'm looking forward to tomorrow. I am going to get a lot accomplished and have a clean phase 1 day.
Good night, eat right
Jana
Wednesday, 23 October 2013
Week 20 on Dr Poon
Hello,
Well, I had my weigh-in this morning. I stepped on my home scale before leaving for the office and was pleased to see 163.2. That is my lowest in-home weigh-in since beginning this process. It also gave me the confidence to know that I would not be 'up' when I stepped on the Dr. Poon scale. Despite this, I was still somewhat disappointed with my results.
My results so far:
June 6 June 26 July 17 July 31 Aug 14 Aug 28 Sept 11
Weight 188 178 175.6 173.4 171.5 169.0 165.5
BMI 32.4 30.6 30.1 29.8 29.4 29.0 28.4
Fat% 40.1 37.6 38.6 38.5 37.4 36.9 35.7
Fat Mass 75.6 67.0 67.8 66.8 64.0 62.5 59.0
TBW 82.5 81.5 79.0 78.0 78.5 78.0 78.0
Sept 25 Oct 9 Oct 23
Weight 167.0 162.6 161.6
BMI 28.7 27.9 27.7
Fat % 37.5 34.7 34.8
Fat Mass 62.5 56.4 56.2
TBW 76.5 77.8 77.2
I am only down one lb since my last weigh-in. This is not a hug accomplishment. So instead I'm going to focus on my over all accomplishments.
-27 total lbs
BMI is down 4.7 points
Body fat percentage is down 5.3%
Body Fat Weight -19.4 lbs!!!
Total Body water -5.6 lbs
I am proud of these overall results. I cannot believe it has been 20 weeks. It certainly does not feel as though it has taken that long. I wish I were having fast success like so many others on this program are reporting. But, success is success regardless of the time line.
It has been a huge help, keeping this online journal. I know it is very likely a boring read to anyone who is not me. But it has certainly helped to keep me on track. From a visual point of view, it is helpful at a glance to see what my numbers were week after week and even day after day. It is easy to think that the scale is not moving, but when you can refer back, it helps to see that it has in fact moved. So thanks for putting up with my lame posts, and just know that they are helping me to reach my goals.
I bought Dr. Poon's book today while shopping in the ONS store. I look forward to reading it. I am one of those people who the more I get into something through education, the more excited I get about it.
I also bought a couple treats from ONS. I have certainly cut back on the amount of treats that I purchase. I bought a sugar-free Choco Perfection bar in raspberry dark chocolate flavor. Oh my! It is delicious! I highly recommend. I also bought a couple of packets of the Walden Farm's calorie-free pancake syrup. So far the pancake syrup is the only Walden Farm's product that I have found to be edible. I have tried a few other products such as the onion dip, miracle mayo, fruit spread etc. I have since given them all away because I just cannot get past the taste. I also purchased some Go Lightly candies. These candies have gotten me through a sweet craving on more than one occasion. I like to keep a few in my purse. The last item I purchased today was a bag of Reese peanut butter cups (sugar-free). They taste as good, if not better than the real thing. I figured with Halloween coming, they might be helpful to have on hand since there will no doubt be temptations.
I have found that writing each evening has been so helpful. So I will be back at T-7 days to my next weigh-in.
Until then, eat right and sleep tight
Jana
Well, I had my weigh-in this morning. I stepped on my home scale before leaving for the office and was pleased to see 163.2. That is my lowest in-home weigh-in since beginning this process. It also gave me the confidence to know that I would not be 'up' when I stepped on the Dr. Poon scale. Despite this, I was still somewhat disappointed with my results.
My results so far:
June 6 June 26 July 17 July 31 Aug 14 Aug 28 Sept 11
Weight 188 178 175.6 173.4 171.5 169.0 165.5
BMI 32.4 30.6 30.1 29.8 29.4 29.0 28.4
Fat% 40.1 37.6 38.6 38.5 37.4 36.9 35.7
Fat Mass 75.6 67.0 67.8 66.8 64.0 62.5 59.0
TBW 82.5 81.5 79.0 78.0 78.5 78.0 78.0
Sept 25 Oct 9 Oct 23
Weight 167.0 162.6 161.6
BMI 28.7 27.9 27.7
Fat % 37.5 34.7 34.8
Fat Mass 62.5 56.4 56.2
TBW 76.5 77.8 77.2
I am only down one lb since my last weigh-in. This is not a hug accomplishment. So instead I'm going to focus on my over all accomplishments.
-27 total lbs
BMI is down 4.7 points
Body fat percentage is down 5.3%
Body Fat Weight -19.4 lbs!!!
Total Body water -5.6 lbs
I am proud of these overall results. I cannot believe it has been 20 weeks. It certainly does not feel as though it has taken that long. I wish I were having fast success like so many others on this program are reporting. But, success is success regardless of the time line.
It has been a huge help, keeping this online journal. I know it is very likely a boring read to anyone who is not me. But it has certainly helped to keep me on track. From a visual point of view, it is helpful at a glance to see what my numbers were week after week and even day after day. It is easy to think that the scale is not moving, but when you can refer back, it helps to see that it has in fact moved. So thanks for putting up with my lame posts, and just know that they are helping me to reach my goals.
I bought Dr. Poon's book today while shopping in the ONS store. I look forward to reading it. I am one of those people who the more I get into something through education, the more excited I get about it.
I also bought a couple treats from ONS. I have certainly cut back on the amount of treats that I purchase. I bought a sugar-free Choco Perfection bar in raspberry dark chocolate flavor. Oh my! It is delicious! I highly recommend. I also bought a couple of packets of the Walden Farm's calorie-free pancake syrup. So far the pancake syrup is the only Walden Farm's product that I have found to be edible. I have tried a few other products such as the onion dip, miracle mayo, fruit spread etc. I have since given them all away because I just cannot get past the taste. I also purchased some Go Lightly candies. These candies have gotten me through a sweet craving on more than one occasion. I like to keep a few in my purse. The last item I purchased today was a bag of Reese peanut butter cups (sugar-free). They taste as good, if not better than the real thing. I figured with Halloween coming, they might be helpful to have on hand since there will no doubt be temptations.
I have found that writing each evening has been so helpful. So I will be back at T-7 days to my next weigh-in.
Until then, eat right and sleep tight
Jana
Tuesday, 22 October 2013
T-1 Day to Next Weigh-In
Hello Friends,
I'm just settling into bed. I'm finding it difficult to type this blog tonight. There is a rather affectionate cat intervening. So I'll be brief.
Here are my numbers so far:
T-7 Days T-6 Days T-5 Days T-4Days T-3 Days T-2 Days T-1 Day
Weight 166.4 165.6 165.6 164.8 165.0 164.2 164.0
BF% 39.2 38.9 37.9 37.7 40.1 37.5 37.0
W% 44.3 44.6 45.3 45.4 43.7 45.6 45.9
Bflbs 65.2 64.4 62.7 62.1 66.1 61.6 60.6
TBW 73.7 73.9 75.0 74.8 72.1 74.9 75.2
I'm so curious how my weigh-in will go in the morning. For the first time in 2 weeks I'm confident that it won't be disastrous.
Breakfast- egg whites scrambled
Lunch- chicken leftovers with hotsauce and mayo
Dinner-tossed salad, cucumbers and steak
My husband and I went to a movie tonight. We don't go often. It was nice to get out. My husband got a small popcorn and a diet Coke. Once again, I thought I could resist the temptation, but alas, I could not. I had about 4 kernels of popcorn and I savored the taste of each one. I was proud of myself, although I wish I could have no desire for the items that my husband eats. I so love buttery movie popcorn. The old Jana would have bought a large popcorn to share with my husband, but I would not have stopped eating until the entire bag was gone. I might have even gotten up during the movie in order to go put extra butter on the popcorn that is half way down the bag.
Instead, this evening, I was getting up and disturbing my fellow movie watchers twice to use the restroom. My period is due tomorrow. It seems that maybe my body is letting go of some of the water it has been retaining. Poor timing, but I'll take it. I stepped on the scale before climbing into bed and to my pleasant to surprise I am the same weight at the end of the day as I was at the beginning, 164. I'm hoping that translates to a good weigh-in tomorrow.
Well good night, eat right and thank you for keeping me on track
I'm just settling into bed. I'm finding it difficult to type this blog tonight. There is a rather affectionate cat intervening. So I'll be brief.
Here are my numbers so far:
T-7 Days T-6 Days T-5 Days T-4Days T-3 Days T-2 Days T-1 Day
Weight 166.4 165.6 165.6 164.8 165.0 164.2 164.0
BF% 39.2 38.9 37.9 37.7 40.1 37.5 37.0
W% 44.3 44.6 45.3 45.4 43.7 45.6 45.9
Bflbs 65.2 64.4 62.7 62.1 66.1 61.6 60.6
TBW 73.7 73.9 75.0 74.8 72.1 74.9 75.2
I'm so curious how my weigh-in will go in the morning. For the first time in 2 weeks I'm confident that it won't be disastrous.
Breakfast- egg whites scrambled
Lunch- chicken leftovers with hotsauce and mayo
Dinner-tossed salad, cucumbers and steak
My husband and I went to a movie tonight. We don't go often. It was nice to get out. My husband got a small popcorn and a diet Coke. Once again, I thought I could resist the temptation, but alas, I could not. I had about 4 kernels of popcorn and I savored the taste of each one. I was proud of myself, although I wish I could have no desire for the items that my husband eats. I so love buttery movie popcorn. The old Jana would have bought a large popcorn to share with my husband, but I would not have stopped eating until the entire bag was gone. I might have even gotten up during the movie in order to go put extra butter on the popcorn that is half way down the bag.
Instead, this evening, I was getting up and disturbing my fellow movie watchers twice to use the restroom. My period is due tomorrow. It seems that maybe my body is letting go of some of the water it has been retaining. Poor timing, but I'll take it. I stepped on the scale before climbing into bed and to my pleasant to surprise I am the same weight at the end of the day as I was at the beginning, 164. I'm hoping that translates to a good weigh-in tomorrow.
Well good night, eat right and thank you for keeping me on track
Monday, 21 October 2013
T-2 Days to Next Weigh-IN
Hello,
My next weigh-in is so near. I cannot believe how much I have struggled since my last weigh-in where I had such success!
Here are my numbers so far:
T-7 Days T-6 Days T-5 Days T-4Days T-3 Days T-2 Days
Weight 166.4 165.6 165.6 164.8 165.0 164.2
BF% 39.2 38.9 37.9 37.7 40.1 37.5
W% 44.3 44.6 45.3 45.4 43.7 45.6
Bflbs 65.2 64.4 62.7 62.1 66.1 61.6
TBW 73.7 73.9 75.0 74.8 72.1 74.9
The scale was more kind to me today. I am still stressing that I will be up in weight, compared to my last weigh-in, Wednesday. I should not put so much stock into the numbers on the scale but I do. I hate the feeling of weighing in at the Dr. Poon clinic and being up. I want to avoid that feeling again.
Breakfast- 1 egg and egg whites scrambled
Lunch- cucumber topped with goat cheese
snack- scrambled egg whites
Dinner- lean ground pork, tossed salad with Walden Farms dressing and olive oil
Snack- 2 squares 90% dark chocolate
I've drank lots of water and lots of coffee today. I have been very inactive. I have spent the entire day sitting, working at the computer. Hopefully I will find the motivation to ride my stationary bike tonight once my husband leaves for work.
I used to enjoy exercise. I have no idea what changed. In fact I used to be very athletic. I used to be able to put on a movie and ride my stationary bile for hours. Now 3 minutes on it feels like an eternity. I used to love to jog. Now, I can barely bring myself to leave the house for any reason. I would love to feel strong and independent again. I just have not found the inner push to stand up and do the work.
Good night, eat right
My next weigh-in is so near. I cannot believe how much I have struggled since my last weigh-in where I had such success!
Here are my numbers so far:
T-7 Days T-6 Days T-5 Days T-4Days T-3 Days T-2 Days
Weight 166.4 165.6 165.6 164.8 165.0 164.2
BF% 39.2 38.9 37.9 37.7 40.1 37.5
W% 44.3 44.6 45.3 45.4 43.7 45.6
Bflbs 65.2 64.4 62.7 62.1 66.1 61.6
TBW 73.7 73.9 75.0 74.8 72.1 74.9
The scale was more kind to me today. I am still stressing that I will be up in weight, compared to my last weigh-in, Wednesday. I should not put so much stock into the numbers on the scale but I do. I hate the feeling of weighing in at the Dr. Poon clinic and being up. I want to avoid that feeling again.
Breakfast- 1 egg and egg whites scrambled
Lunch- cucumber topped with goat cheese
snack- scrambled egg whites
Dinner- lean ground pork, tossed salad with Walden Farms dressing and olive oil
Snack- 2 squares 90% dark chocolate
I've drank lots of water and lots of coffee today. I have been very inactive. I have spent the entire day sitting, working at the computer. Hopefully I will find the motivation to ride my stationary bike tonight once my husband leaves for work.
I used to enjoy exercise. I have no idea what changed. In fact I used to be very athletic. I used to be able to put on a movie and ride my stationary bile for hours. Now 3 minutes on it feels like an eternity. I used to love to jog. Now, I can barely bring myself to leave the house for any reason. I would love to feel strong and independent again. I just have not found the inner push to stand up and do the work.
Good night, eat right
Sunday, 20 October 2013
T-3 Days to Next Weigh-In
Hello friends,
I'm just not getting anywhere. I am trying. I know I am not perfect. But I AM trying. Truly.
Here are my numbers so far:
T-7 Days T-6 Days T-5 Days T-4Days T-3 Days
Weight 166.4 165.6 165.6 164.8 165.0
BF% 39.2 38.9 37.9 37.7 40.1
W% 44.3 44.6 45.3 45.4 43.7
Bflbs 65.2 64.4 62.7 62.1 66.1
TBW 73.7 73.9 75.0 74.8 72.1
I did step back on the scale after my coffee. My body fat % seemed to be more consistent the second time. 165.4, bf % 37.9 = 62.6 lbs of fat.
I didn't do great today either, but I really did try.
Breakfast - 1 egg and egg whites scrambled
Lunch- tossed salad with goat cheese
Dinner- tossed salad, coleslaw and rotisserie-cooked chicken
Dessert- spoonful of icecream, 3 pieces dark chocolate, Poon-friendly brownie.
I'm feeling guilty about the icecream. I wish I could avoid it entirely. But when everyone is eating it around me I just can't seem to rise above. I did find the dark chocolate to be extremely satisfying though.
Before dinner, my husband, the kids and I, took a nice nature walk for about an hour and a half. I've also attempted both my treadmill and my stationary bike this evening. I just don't seem to have the desire to exercise that I wish I did.
I think my weigh-in on Wednesday is going to be disappointing. I just wish I could see 163 on my home scale before then. But it seems so elusive. I feel so obsessed with the scale. It's probably not healthy to be so focussed on the numbers, but I know that when I do not obsess, my weight only goes up.
This morning, while drinking my coffee, I watched Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead on Netflix. It's a documentary of a man's journey to health via 60 days of a juice fast. It was an incredibly inspiring and motivating story. I feel like this is something I could possibly do. Maybe not for 60 days, but perhaps for 10. In the movie, the man leaves his home in Australia to do his 60 day fast in the USA. along the way, he meets another man and inspires him to also do the juice fast. In the case of the second man, he checks into a hotel while he commits to his fast. I really do think that getting out of one's environment may be the key to committing to such a radical change. It's not unlike my own challenges. I strongly believe that if my husband and his kids were not with me, I could easily stay on track with my food choices. I can't blame them entirely, they motivate me to get moving. I would not have gone for such a long walk on my own.
Anyways, I'm always open to your feedback. if you have any suggestions that might help me through my plateau I would love to hear from you. I'll even humor suggestions to exercise.
Good night, eat right,
Jana
I'm just not getting anywhere. I am trying. I know I am not perfect. But I AM trying. Truly.
Here are my numbers so far:
T-7 Days T-6 Days T-5 Days T-4Days T-3 Days
Weight 166.4 165.6 165.6 164.8 165.0
BF% 39.2 38.9 37.9 37.7 40.1
W% 44.3 44.6 45.3 45.4 43.7
Bflbs 65.2 64.4 62.7 62.1 66.1
TBW 73.7 73.9 75.0 74.8 72.1
I did step back on the scale after my coffee. My body fat % seemed to be more consistent the second time. 165.4, bf % 37.9 = 62.6 lbs of fat.
I didn't do great today either, but I really did try.
Breakfast - 1 egg and egg whites scrambled
Lunch- tossed salad with goat cheese
Dinner- tossed salad, coleslaw and rotisserie-cooked chicken
Dessert- spoonful of icecream, 3 pieces dark chocolate, Poon-friendly brownie.
I'm feeling guilty about the icecream. I wish I could avoid it entirely. But when everyone is eating it around me I just can't seem to rise above. I did find the dark chocolate to be extremely satisfying though.
Before dinner, my husband, the kids and I, took a nice nature walk for about an hour and a half. I've also attempted both my treadmill and my stationary bike this evening. I just don't seem to have the desire to exercise that I wish I did.
I think my weigh-in on Wednesday is going to be disappointing. I just wish I could see 163 on my home scale before then. But it seems so elusive. I feel so obsessed with the scale. It's probably not healthy to be so focussed on the numbers, but I know that when I do not obsess, my weight only goes up.
This morning, while drinking my coffee, I watched Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead on Netflix. It's a documentary of a man's journey to health via 60 days of a juice fast. It was an incredibly inspiring and motivating story. I feel like this is something I could possibly do. Maybe not for 60 days, but perhaps for 10. In the movie, the man leaves his home in Australia to do his 60 day fast in the USA. along the way, he meets another man and inspires him to also do the juice fast. In the case of the second man, he checks into a hotel while he commits to his fast. I really do think that getting out of one's environment may be the key to committing to such a radical change. It's not unlike my own challenges. I strongly believe that if my husband and his kids were not with me, I could easily stay on track with my food choices. I can't blame them entirely, they motivate me to get moving. I would not have gone for such a long walk on my own.
Anyways, I'm always open to your feedback. if you have any suggestions that might help me through my plateau I would love to hear from you. I'll even humor suggestions to exercise.
Good night, eat right,
Jana
Saturday, 19 October 2013
T-4 Days to My Next Weigh-In
Hello,
I'm lying in bed. Thinking back over the day I have had and the choices I made that were good, and also the choices I made which were not good. Too many times today I told myself 'it's okay' and put something non-Poon approved into my mouth. There is no excuse. It is no one's battle but my own. Having my step-kids here does make it more challenging, but I can do this. My desire to lose weight is stronger than my desire to have junk food. Tomorrow is a new day and I will make better choices tomorrow than what I have today.
Here are my numbers so far:
T-7 Days T-6 Days T-5 Days T-4Days
Weight 166.4 165.6 165.6 164.8
BF% 39.2 38.9 37.9 37.7
W% 44.3 44.6 45.3 45.4
Bflbs 65.2 64.4 62.7 62.1
TBW 73.7 73.9 75.0 74.8
The scale dropped a little more today. But I'm afraid some of the choices I made today will compromise my weigh-in tomorrow morning.
Breakfast- 2 eggs scrambled
Lunch- Tossed salad with goat cheese
We went to my step-son's hockey game and stopped by the Tim Horton's drive thru on the way. I ordered a coffee with cream while French Vanilla cappuccinos and timbits were also passed through our window- patting myself on the back for having self control in that instance.
Dinner- 2x salmon loins, tossed salad, coleslaw (while the rest of my family ate pepperoni pizza)
See what I am up against? I tried so hard to resist the pizza, but alas I caved and peeled off about 6 very salty, very delicious pieces of pepperoni.
snack- while my family ate heaping bowls of pralines and cream icecream, I had 2 pieces of 90% dark chocolate. Once again, I did my best to avoid the icecream, but sitting next to my husband while he ate his beside me was just too temping and I had 3 very small mouthfuls.
*SIGH* Why oh why must it be so hard? And why must there be so much temptation around me? I truly hope to find a stronger resolve within myself. I don't want to be a person who cannot resist theses unhealthy foods. The old Jana would've eaten large portions of these foods with my family in the past. So in that regard today was a victory. But in truth, it almost felt like it was beyond my control tonight. I felt like I could not have avoided eating those pepperonis or spoonful's of icecream at any cost. I don't want to feel powerless to junk food. I don't want potato chips, cookies or any such food to have any power over me.
Tomorrow is a new day. A new opportunity to prove that I am stronger than my food addiction. Tomorrow is another day to lead by example. I hope that the scale will be kind to me.
Good night, eat right,
Jana
I'm lying in bed. Thinking back over the day I have had and the choices I made that were good, and also the choices I made which were not good. Too many times today I told myself 'it's okay' and put something non-Poon approved into my mouth. There is no excuse. It is no one's battle but my own. Having my step-kids here does make it more challenging, but I can do this. My desire to lose weight is stronger than my desire to have junk food. Tomorrow is a new day and I will make better choices tomorrow than what I have today.
Here are my numbers so far:
T-7 Days T-6 Days T-5 Days T-4Days
Weight 166.4 165.6 165.6 164.8
BF% 39.2 38.9 37.9 37.7
W% 44.3 44.6 45.3 45.4
Bflbs 65.2 64.4 62.7 62.1
TBW 73.7 73.9 75.0 74.8
The scale dropped a little more today. But I'm afraid some of the choices I made today will compromise my weigh-in tomorrow morning.
Breakfast- 2 eggs scrambled
Lunch- Tossed salad with goat cheese
We went to my step-son's hockey game and stopped by the Tim Horton's drive thru on the way. I ordered a coffee with cream while French Vanilla cappuccinos and timbits were also passed through our window- patting myself on the back for having self control in that instance.
Dinner- 2x salmon loins, tossed salad, coleslaw (while the rest of my family ate pepperoni pizza)
See what I am up against? I tried so hard to resist the pizza, but alas I caved and peeled off about 6 very salty, very delicious pieces of pepperoni.
snack- while my family ate heaping bowls of pralines and cream icecream, I had 2 pieces of 90% dark chocolate. Once again, I did my best to avoid the icecream, but sitting next to my husband while he ate his beside me was just too temping and I had 3 very small mouthfuls.
*SIGH* Why oh why must it be so hard? And why must there be so much temptation around me? I truly hope to find a stronger resolve within myself. I don't want to be a person who cannot resist theses unhealthy foods. The old Jana would've eaten large portions of these foods with my family in the past. So in that regard today was a victory. But in truth, it almost felt like it was beyond my control tonight. I felt like I could not have avoided eating those pepperonis or spoonful's of icecream at any cost. I don't want to feel powerless to junk food. I don't want potato chips, cookies or any such food to have any power over me.
Tomorrow is a new day. A new opportunity to prove that I am stronger than my food addiction. Tomorrow is another day to lead by example. I hope that the scale will be kind to me.
Good night, eat right,
Jana
Friday, 18 October 2013
T-5 days to Next Weigh-in
Hello, hello,
Here are my numbers so far:
T-7 Days T-6 Days T-5 Days
Weight 166.4 165.6 165.6
BF% 39.2 38.9 37.9
W% 44.3 44.6 45.3
Bflbs 65.2 64.4 62.7
TBW 73.7 73.9 75.0
Once again, I'm not sure how much I trust my body fat numbers on my home scale. I can't believe how much I am struggling with the scale the past couple weeks. It feels like I got to 163 and got stuck, not just stuck, but actually gained. I have not in anyway given up. I still 'try' every single day, but the scale just does it's own thing.
Breakfast - 2 eggs scrambled
Lunch- tossed salad with goat cheese
Snack - Broccoli salad
Supper- Pulled pork, broccoli salad
Snack - Dr. Poon Brownie
I have not drank much water today. I'm on my 3rd glass of water now.
Here are my numbers so far:
T-7 Days T-6 Days T-5 Days
Weight 166.4 165.6 165.6
BF% 39.2 38.9 37.9
W% 44.3 44.6 45.3
Bflbs 65.2 64.4 62.7
TBW 73.7 73.9 75.0
Once again, I'm not sure how much I trust my body fat numbers on my home scale. I can't believe how much I am struggling with the scale the past couple weeks. It feels like I got to 163 and got stuck, not just stuck, but actually gained. I have not in anyway given up. I still 'try' every single day, but the scale just does it's own thing.
Breakfast - 2 eggs scrambled
Lunch- tossed salad with goat cheese
Snack - Broccoli salad
Supper- Pulled pork, broccoli salad
Snack - Dr. Poon Brownie
I have not drank much water today. I'm on my 3rd glass of water now.
Thursday, 17 October 2013
T-6 day Till Next Weigh-In
Hello Folks,
T-7 Days T-6 Days
Weight 166.4 165.6
BF% 39.2 38.9
W% 44.3 44.6
Bflbs 65.2 64.4
TBW 73.7 73.9
The scale came back down a little bit more today. I'm feeling very discouraged though. I think I have PMS and it is causing me to want to eat EVERYTHING in sight. I just can't seem to reel my appetite and my self-control in. My period is due the day of my next weigh-in and I am not sure how much that is going to affect my efforts between now and then. It's one thing to retain water, but I don't think my weight gain is just water. My eating is slightly off-track. Unfortunately, in order to see results I have to be nearly perfect. Being mostly good is not good enough in my case.
Breakfast- 2x eggs scrambled
Lunch- coleslaw, cucumbers, tossed salad with goat cheese
Dinner- souvlaki, 1/3 schnitzel (I cooked for my husband, but could not resist. It is breaded and very salty. I would have gladly eaten a whole piece but I did manage to restrict myself to s small piece), asparagus
Snack- ONS sugar-free brownies (I wish I had avoided these altogether but the brownies I made for my husband have become too tempting to I opted for making an option for myself that is the lesser of 2 evils.)
I have drank lots of coffee, water with lemon and tea. I also didn't get much exercise today. * SIGH * I'm feeling a little discouraged. It's so hard to control one's weight. It takes constant monitoring. The moment, and I mean moment I let my guard down my weight sky rockets - 10 lbs in one evening in Niagara Falls. UNBELIEVABLE.
I know I can do it. I have had weight loss success in the past. I'm also able to maintain it for a while, but the moment I get careless, it all just piles back on.
I would love to go back to Curves. I had excellent results with their workout program in the past. Unfortunately I just cannot allocate the extra money to a membership at this time. I worked for Curves for 3 years and maintained my weight at just slightly less than what I am now. I find their membership fees to be slightly expensive and it is even harder to pay it when you used to have it for free. I would love to go back though. It really does work. I felt so much stronger and more toned when I was there.
Well, it's time for bed. I hope to have a better day tomorrow. The kids will be here. Hopefully there will not be a ton of junk food in the house. And if there is, hopefully I will have the resolve to avoid it.
Jana
T-7 Days T-6 Days
Weight 166.4 165.6
BF% 39.2 38.9
W% 44.3 44.6
Bflbs 65.2 64.4
TBW 73.7 73.9
The scale came back down a little bit more today. I'm feeling very discouraged though. I think I have PMS and it is causing me to want to eat EVERYTHING in sight. I just can't seem to reel my appetite and my self-control in. My period is due the day of my next weigh-in and I am not sure how much that is going to affect my efforts between now and then. It's one thing to retain water, but I don't think my weight gain is just water. My eating is slightly off-track. Unfortunately, in order to see results I have to be nearly perfect. Being mostly good is not good enough in my case.
Breakfast- 2x eggs scrambled
Lunch- coleslaw, cucumbers, tossed salad with goat cheese
Dinner- souvlaki, 1/3 schnitzel (I cooked for my husband, but could not resist. It is breaded and very salty. I would have gladly eaten a whole piece but I did manage to restrict myself to s small piece), asparagus
Snack- ONS sugar-free brownies (I wish I had avoided these altogether but the brownies I made for my husband have become too tempting to I opted for making an option for myself that is the lesser of 2 evils.)
I have drank lots of coffee, water with lemon and tea. I also didn't get much exercise today. * SIGH * I'm feeling a little discouraged. It's so hard to control one's weight. It takes constant monitoring. The moment, and I mean moment I let my guard down my weight sky rockets - 10 lbs in one evening in Niagara Falls. UNBELIEVABLE.
I know I can do it. I have had weight loss success in the past. I'm also able to maintain it for a while, but the moment I get careless, it all just piles back on.
I would love to go back to Curves. I had excellent results with their workout program in the past. Unfortunately I just cannot allocate the extra money to a membership at this time. I worked for Curves for 3 years and maintained my weight at just slightly less than what I am now. I find their membership fees to be slightly expensive and it is even harder to pay it when you used to have it for free. I would love to go back though. It really does work. I felt so much stronger and more toned when I was there.
Well, it's time for bed. I hope to have a better day tomorrow. The kids will be here. Hopefully there will not be a ton of junk food in the house. And if there is, hopefully I will have the resolve to avoid it.
Jana
Wednesday, 16 October 2013
T-7 days to next Weigh-In
I'm back! And I'm frustrated. It would seem that when I am left to my own devices I derail my weight loss train. It's frightening how quickly my body gains weight. Over the years I have messed up metabolism beyond belief. I do have a thyroid disease and my doctor once told me that my metabolism is 20x slower than a normal healthy metabolism. Well let's just say that over the past weekend I proved that fact to be true.
It was Thanksgiving. I did not go off track with the traditional Thanksgiving feast. Rather I went off track enjoying a night in Niagara Falls with my husband. On Thursday morning I stepped on the scale and weighed 163.8 lbs. I made a Poon friendly breakfast and lunch before we headed to the Falls. In Niagara I made some non-Poon choices. I bought a king-size can of Mott's Caesar and a bottle of red wine. For dinner, we went to a buffet. At the buffet I made good choices. I ate mostly from the salad bar and chose a couple of meat items from the hot buffet area, roast beef, salmon, mussels. I was not going to have dessert at all, but alas I could not resist and had very small bites of a couple different items. I'm talking a dime sized bite of a brownie and a quarter sized bite of sticky-toffee pudding. Not Poon-approved, I agree, but a very far cry from how the old Jana would have approached that buffet.
Friday morning we went out for breakfast. I ordered a standard breakfast with sausage and scrambled eggs. I passed the toast and home fries to my husband. I was left feeling hungry but was proud of myself for sticking close to the plan. We crossed the border and went to the Seneca casino because a 50.00 gambling coupon had been included with our hotel stay. Beverages are free at the Seneca casino and I had probably 4 virgin Caesars. The damage? A crushing and devastating 10 lbs!! When I stepped on the scale Friday night I was 173.0 lbs.
I tried to be good the rest of the weekend and the scale dropped several pounds. I would like to say "oh, it's just water retention because of all the sodium in the caesars" but I've made that mistake before.
So I'm back. And I am buckling down phase-1 style for the next 7 days until my next weigh in. It worked for me before, and I am hoping it will work for me again. I do not want a lousy weigh in next week, but most of all I want to keep moving forward. I warned my husband last night that his neurotic, dieting wife is back.
T-7 Days
Weight 166.4
BF% 39.2
W% 44.3
Bflbs 65.2
TBW 73.7
Breakfast- 2 eggs scrambled
Coffee- 3 mugs
Water -1 litre and counting
Lunch- Cucumber slices
Exercise - 20 min bike ride
Dinner- 2 salmon loins, coleslaw, asparagus and tossed salad with goat cheese
My slip up- I am making brownies for my husband. I will not have a brownie once they are cooked, but I sampled the batter and licked the spoon.
The brownies are currently in the oven. The recipe called for water and vegetable oil. I used some left over canned pumpkin instead. I hope they turn out. I could not resist tasting the batter. That man is going to LOVE me when he gets home from my step-kids sporting events.
He sure missed out on a good supper though. I cooked that salmon in the oven in a tin foil packet. I made a sauce out of Walden Farm's calorie-free maple syrup and low-sodium soya sauce. It turned out delicious! So delicious in fact, that I ate much more than I should have. But I am done for the evening. The rest of my day will be water, tea, coffee perhaps.... but no more food. I'm pleasantly stuffed.
Good night all,
Jana
P.S - I sort of blew it. I don't know what got into me but I totally needed to 'binge' late last night. I tried to just stick to tossed salad. I ate a bowl of salad and then went to bed. But I found myself getting out of bed at midnight and needing something sweet. The old Jana would have dived head first into the brownies that I made for my husband. Instead, I made a portion of Carbquick pancakes with calorie free syrup and chocolate sauce. It wasn't the worst thing ever to eat. But none the less, I'm trying to avoid snacking and eating at night. **SIGH**
It was Thanksgiving. I did not go off track with the traditional Thanksgiving feast. Rather I went off track enjoying a night in Niagara Falls with my husband. On Thursday morning I stepped on the scale and weighed 163.8 lbs. I made a Poon friendly breakfast and lunch before we headed to the Falls. In Niagara I made some non-Poon choices. I bought a king-size can of Mott's Caesar and a bottle of red wine. For dinner, we went to a buffet. At the buffet I made good choices. I ate mostly from the salad bar and chose a couple of meat items from the hot buffet area, roast beef, salmon, mussels. I was not going to have dessert at all, but alas I could not resist and had very small bites of a couple different items. I'm talking a dime sized bite of a brownie and a quarter sized bite of sticky-toffee pudding. Not Poon-approved, I agree, but a very far cry from how the old Jana would have approached that buffet.
Friday morning we went out for breakfast. I ordered a standard breakfast with sausage and scrambled eggs. I passed the toast and home fries to my husband. I was left feeling hungry but was proud of myself for sticking close to the plan. We crossed the border and went to the Seneca casino because a 50.00 gambling coupon had been included with our hotel stay. Beverages are free at the Seneca casino and I had probably 4 virgin Caesars. The damage? A crushing and devastating 10 lbs!! When I stepped on the scale Friday night I was 173.0 lbs.
I tried to be good the rest of the weekend and the scale dropped several pounds. I would like to say "oh, it's just water retention because of all the sodium in the caesars" but I've made that mistake before.
So I'm back. And I am buckling down phase-1 style for the next 7 days until my next weigh in. It worked for me before, and I am hoping it will work for me again. I do not want a lousy weigh in next week, but most of all I want to keep moving forward. I warned my husband last night that his neurotic, dieting wife is back.
T-7 Days
Weight 166.4
BF% 39.2
W% 44.3
Bflbs 65.2
TBW 73.7
Breakfast- 2 eggs scrambled
Coffee- 3 mugs
Water -1 litre and counting
Lunch- Cucumber slices
Exercise - 20 min bike ride
Dinner- 2 salmon loins, coleslaw, asparagus and tossed salad with goat cheese
My slip up- I am making brownies for my husband. I will not have a brownie once they are cooked, but I sampled the batter and licked the spoon.
The brownies are currently in the oven. The recipe called for water and vegetable oil. I used some left over canned pumpkin instead. I hope they turn out. I could not resist tasting the batter. That man is going to LOVE me when he gets home from my step-kids sporting events.
He sure missed out on a good supper though. I cooked that salmon in the oven in a tin foil packet. I made a sauce out of Walden Farm's calorie-free maple syrup and low-sodium soya sauce. It turned out delicious! So delicious in fact, that I ate much more than I should have. But I am done for the evening. The rest of my day will be water, tea, coffee perhaps.... but no more food. I'm pleasantly stuffed.
Good night all,
Jana
P.S - I sort of blew it. I don't know what got into me but I totally needed to 'binge' late last night. I tried to just stick to tossed salad. I ate a bowl of salad and then went to bed. But I found myself getting out of bed at midnight and needing something sweet. The old Jana would have dived head first into the brownies that I made for my husband. Instead, I made a portion of Carbquick pancakes with calorie free syrup and chocolate sauce. It wasn't the worst thing ever to eat. But none the less, I'm trying to avoid snacking and eating at night. **SIGH**
Wednesday, 9 October 2013
Week 18 Results and the Completion of "I Messed Up" on the Dr Poon Diet
hello folks!
I'm feeling pretty darn good about myself right now. I had my visit to the dr. Poon clinic this afternoon. I am REDEEMED!!
My weight this morning on my scale was 165. I was so disappointed because I had been down to 163 so many mornings leading up today. It would seem that all the water I drank yesterday actually backfired. Oh well. My weigh-in results were amazing today so I am HAPPY!!
My results so far:
June 6 June 26 July 17 July 31 Aug 14 Aug 28 Sept 11
Weight 188 178 175.6 173.4 171.5 169.0 165.5
BMI 32.4 30.6 30.1 29.8 29.4 29.0 28.4
Fat% 40.1 37.6 38.6 38.5 37.4 36.9 35.7
Fat Mass 75.6 67.0 67.8 66.8 64.0 62.5 59.0
TBW 82.5 81.5 79.0 78.0 78.5 78.0 78.0
Sept 25 Oct 9
Weight 167.0 162.6
BMI 28.7 27.9
Fat % 37.5 34.7
Fat Mass 62.5 56.4
TBW 76.5 77.8
-4.4 total lbs
BMI is down .8 points
Body fat percentage is down 2.8%
Body Fat Weight -6.1 lbs!!!
Total Body water + 1.3 lbs
I am so proud of those results. I worked really hard for them. The tanita printout I was given says that if I lose 4 more lbs of fat I will be at 33% body fat which is the upper end of the desired body fat percentage for women. So that is my new short-term goal.
By the way, I have also finally caught up to my cousin. We are both 162 as of this morning. (Although, for me it doesn't really count until I see it on my scale)
Well, I don't intend to journal every day anymore. Although, I strongly believe that it helped me achieve these results, but if I need to, I will.
Here's to staying on track and losing 4 more lbs in the next 2 weeks!!
Jana
I'm feeling pretty darn good about myself right now. I had my visit to the dr. Poon clinic this afternoon. I am REDEEMED!!
My weight this morning on my scale was 165. I was so disappointed because I had been down to 163 so many mornings leading up today. It would seem that all the water I drank yesterday actually backfired. Oh well. My weigh-in results were amazing today so I am HAPPY!!
My results so far:
June 6 June 26 July 17 July 31 Aug 14 Aug 28 Sept 11
Weight 188 178 175.6 173.4 171.5 169.0 165.5
BMI 32.4 30.6 30.1 29.8 29.4 29.0 28.4
Fat% 40.1 37.6 38.6 38.5 37.4 36.9 35.7
Fat Mass 75.6 67.0 67.8 66.8 64.0 62.5 59.0
TBW 82.5 81.5 79.0 78.0 78.5 78.0 78.0
Sept 25 Oct 9
Weight 167.0 162.6
BMI 28.7 27.9
Fat % 37.5 34.7
Fat Mass 62.5 56.4
TBW 76.5 77.8
-4.4 total lbs
BMI is down .8 points
Body fat percentage is down 2.8%
Body Fat Weight -6.1 lbs!!!
Total Body water + 1.3 lbs
I am so proud of those results. I worked really hard for them. The tanita printout I was given says that if I lose 4 more lbs of fat I will be at 33% body fat which is the upper end of the desired body fat percentage for women. So that is my new short-term goal.
By the way, I have also finally caught up to my cousin. We are both 162 as of this morning. (Although, for me it doesn't really count until I see it on my scale)
Well, I don't intend to journal every day anymore. Although, I strongly believe that it helped me achieve these results, but if I need to, I will.
Here's to staying on track and losing 4 more lbs in the next 2 weeks!!
Jana
Tuesday, 8 October 2013
I Messed Up- Day FOURTEEN
hello!
It's day 14!! I have stayed the course and kept myself strictly committed to the Dr. Poon diet for 14 days! I am very proud of myself. I hope my official weigh in results tomorrow reflect my efforts. I have drank so much water today that at the moment my weight is quite high. I am hoping that my system flushes the excess out by morning.
here are my "I messed up" numbers so far:
IMU1 IMU2 IMU3 IMU4 IMU5 IMU6 IMU7
W 168.8 168.6 167.8 167.8 167.0 166.6 165.6
BF% 39.2 38.9 38.5 39.7 41.3 38.5
H20% 44.3 44.6 44.8 44.0 42.8 44.8
Bflbs 66.1 65.2 64.6 66.2 68.8 63.8
TBW 74.7 74.8 75.1 73.8 71.3 74.1
IMU8 IMU9 IMU10 IMU11 IMU12 IMU13 IMU14
W 165.4 166.0 163.6 164.8 163.8 164.0 164.0
BF% 38.5 37.9 37.7 38.4 40.8 36.8
H20% 44.8 45.3 45.4 44.9 43.2 46.1
Bflbs 63.7 62.0 62.1 62.8 66.9 60.4
TBW 74.1 74.1 74.8 73.5 70.8 75.6
I can't really be excited for my body fat numbers. I want to be, but if I can't trust them when I don't like what they say, it stands to reason that I can't trust them when I do like what they say. The truth will be known tomorrow, when I step on the Tanita Body Composition scale at the Dr. Poon clinic.
I nearly made it 14 full days without a 'treat'. But today after dinner I whipped up a delicious low carb dessert. I got the inspiration off Pinterest last night while I was plagued with insomnia. I intended to wait until tomorrow before allowing myself a treat, but I guess my will power ran out. I made a sort of pumpkin mousse. It was quite tasty. My version had a few heaping table spoons of pure pumpkin puree, and about an equal amount of light cream cheese. I added a splash of whipping cream and vanilla extract, splenda , nutmeg, cinnamon, and pumpkin pie spice. I whipped it all together and served it in a small dessert dish. It was quite nice. I should have waited until tomorrow to indulge, but at least it was low-carb and sugar-free. My other small victory was that I made three portions. My husband and I each ate one and the other is safely cooling in the fridge. The pre-poon Jana would have eaten that portion as well and probably would have made more by now. Not too mention I would be out ordering full-fat Pumpkin Spice lattes at Starbucks and McDonalds to go with it.
Breakfast- 2 eggs scrambled
Lunch- coleslaw
Dinner- bone-in chicken breast (it has some shake and bake on it. My husband cooked and I did not feel like having a discussion about after the weekend we just got over), tossed salad, broccoli salad
I drank nearly 6 litres of water today. I just stepped on the scale and bed time I am 167.4 lbs. I have a lot of water to lose over night if I want to have a successful weigh in tomorrow =)
I also had coffee today, but I skipped the Ayruvedic tea.
Well keep your fingers crossed for me. I am seriously hoping for redemption tomorrow.
Good night all,
Jana
It's day 14!! I have stayed the course and kept myself strictly committed to the Dr. Poon diet for 14 days! I am very proud of myself. I hope my official weigh in results tomorrow reflect my efforts. I have drank so much water today that at the moment my weight is quite high. I am hoping that my system flushes the excess out by morning.
here are my "I messed up" numbers so far:
IMU1 IMU2 IMU3 IMU4 IMU5 IMU6 IMU7
W 168.8 168.6 167.8 167.8 167.0 166.6 165.6
BF% 39.2 38.9 38.5 39.7 41.3 38.5
H20% 44.3 44.6 44.8 44.0 42.8 44.8
Bflbs 66.1 65.2 64.6 66.2 68.8 63.8
TBW 74.7 74.8 75.1 73.8 71.3 74.1
IMU8 IMU9 IMU10 IMU11 IMU12 IMU13 IMU14
W 165.4 166.0 163.6 164.8 163.8 164.0 164.0
BF% 38.5 37.9 37.7 38.4 40.8 36.8
H20% 44.8 45.3 45.4 44.9 43.2 46.1
Bflbs 63.7 62.0 62.1 62.8 66.9 60.4
TBW 74.1 74.1 74.8 73.5 70.8 75.6
I can't really be excited for my body fat numbers. I want to be, but if I can't trust them when I don't like what they say, it stands to reason that I can't trust them when I do like what they say. The truth will be known tomorrow, when I step on the Tanita Body Composition scale at the Dr. Poon clinic.
I nearly made it 14 full days without a 'treat'. But today after dinner I whipped up a delicious low carb dessert. I got the inspiration off Pinterest last night while I was plagued with insomnia. I intended to wait until tomorrow before allowing myself a treat, but I guess my will power ran out. I made a sort of pumpkin mousse. It was quite tasty. My version had a few heaping table spoons of pure pumpkin puree, and about an equal amount of light cream cheese. I added a splash of whipping cream and vanilla extract, splenda , nutmeg, cinnamon, and pumpkin pie spice. I whipped it all together and served it in a small dessert dish. It was quite nice. I should have waited until tomorrow to indulge, but at least it was low-carb and sugar-free. My other small victory was that I made three portions. My husband and I each ate one and the other is safely cooling in the fridge. The pre-poon Jana would have eaten that portion as well and probably would have made more by now. Not too mention I would be out ordering full-fat Pumpkin Spice lattes at Starbucks and McDonalds to go with it.
Breakfast- 2 eggs scrambled
Lunch- coleslaw
Dinner- bone-in chicken breast (it has some shake and bake on it. My husband cooked and I did not feel like having a discussion about after the weekend we just got over), tossed salad, broccoli salad
I drank nearly 6 litres of water today. I just stepped on the scale and bed time I am 167.4 lbs. I have a lot of water to lose over night if I want to have a successful weigh in tomorrow =)
I also had coffee today, but I skipped the Ayruvedic tea.
Well keep your fingers crossed for me. I am seriously hoping for redemption tomorrow.
Good night all,
Jana
Monday, 7 October 2013
I Messed Up- Day THIRTEEN
Hello folks,
I'm feeling much better today. My husband and I had a good talk and worked through our issues. It feels good to clear the air and be back on the same page. I don't know what changed but I appreciate that he took the time to talk and he seemed to really understand my point of view. Hopefully next time his kids come he can put his words into actions.
Anyways, back to the point at hand, here are my "I messed up" numbers so far:
IMU1 IMU2 IMU3 IMU4 IMU5 IMU6 IMU7
W 168.8 168.6 167.8 167.8 167.0 166.6 165.6
BF% 39.2 38.9 38.5 39.7 41.3 38.5
H20% 44.3 44.6 44.8 44.0 42.8 44.8
Bflbs 66.1 65.2 64.6 66.2 68.8 63.8
TBW 74.7 74.8 75.1 73.8 71.3 74.1
IMU8 IMU9 IMU10 IMU11 IMU12 IMU13
W 165.4 166.0 163.6 164.8 163.8 164.0
BF% 38.5 37.9 37.7 38.4 40.8
H20% 44.8 45.3 45.4 44.9 43.2
Bflbs 63.7 62.0 62.1 62.8 66.9
TBW 74.1 74.1 74.8 73.5 70.8
I'm not too sure why the scale hasn't really dropped for me the past couple of days. I think I've been good. Today is one of those days when I don't really trust the body fat numbers on my scale. I highly doubt that I gained 4 lbs of fat last night and lost 3 lbs of water. But hey, what do I know.
Breakfast- 2 eggs scrambles
Lunch-skipped
Dinner- turkey stirfry with celery and some frozen mixed veg, coleslaw, cucumber
Coffee-3-4 mugs
water- approx. 2.5 litres
Tea- 2 mugs
I think I was pretty good today. I'm going to drink water tomorrow like crazy and try to flush as much sodium from my body as possible. I had some low sodium soya sauce in my stirfry. Tomorrow's goal is too be extra, extra good in order to have the best weigh-in possible on Wednesday. I have drinking more water this past 2 weeks since my last bad weigh-in. It definitely takes effort. I have to actually try to get it into me. I hope that this is a habit that I will stick with after my appointment on Wednesday.
Anyways, time for bed.
P.S
It's now nearly 3 am. I guess I spoke too soon about it being time for bed. I am WIDE awake. I'm watching Bewitched on Netflix hoping soon to drift off. I started feeling hungry at about 1 am. Dr. Poon doesn't have rules about when to eat. So long as it is lean protein or leafy greens, you are free to eat it anytime. So I a satiated myself with some leftover turkey. I made the mistake of browsing some low carb dessert recipes on my cell phone. I got some great ideas that I am looking forward to trying. However, all that browsing made me hungry again. I didn't want to give into my sweet craving. I really wanted to get through my "I Messed Up" 2 weeks without having sweet snacks. Instead I had a handful of unsalted sunflower seeds and a Go Lightly butterscotch hard candy. The bad new is I think I've chipped my tooth just now. That's bad news. Not only will it be an expense I cannot afford right now, but also, as it has left my tooth feeling rather sharp, I fear I will never sleep! My tongue will not leave this sharp edge alone!
Time to try sleeping again. My husband has an early morning doctor's appointment and he would like me to go with him.
Jana
I'm feeling much better today. My husband and I had a good talk and worked through our issues. It feels good to clear the air and be back on the same page. I don't know what changed but I appreciate that he took the time to talk and he seemed to really understand my point of view. Hopefully next time his kids come he can put his words into actions.
Anyways, back to the point at hand, here are my "I messed up" numbers so far:
IMU1 IMU2 IMU3 IMU4 IMU5 IMU6 IMU7
W 168.8 168.6 167.8 167.8 167.0 166.6 165.6
BF% 39.2 38.9 38.5 39.7 41.3 38.5
H20% 44.3 44.6 44.8 44.0 42.8 44.8
Bflbs 66.1 65.2 64.6 66.2 68.8 63.8
TBW 74.7 74.8 75.1 73.8 71.3 74.1
IMU8 IMU9 IMU10 IMU11 IMU12 IMU13
W 165.4 166.0 163.6 164.8 163.8 164.0
BF% 38.5 37.9 37.7 38.4 40.8
H20% 44.8 45.3 45.4 44.9 43.2
Bflbs 63.7 62.0 62.1 62.8 66.9
TBW 74.1 74.1 74.8 73.5 70.8
I'm not too sure why the scale hasn't really dropped for me the past couple of days. I think I've been good. Today is one of those days when I don't really trust the body fat numbers on my scale. I highly doubt that I gained 4 lbs of fat last night and lost 3 lbs of water. But hey, what do I know.
Breakfast- 2 eggs scrambles
Lunch-skipped
Dinner- turkey stirfry with celery and some frozen mixed veg, coleslaw, cucumber
Coffee-3-4 mugs
water- approx. 2.5 litres
Tea- 2 mugs
I think I was pretty good today. I'm going to drink water tomorrow like crazy and try to flush as much sodium from my body as possible. I had some low sodium soya sauce in my stirfry. Tomorrow's goal is too be extra, extra good in order to have the best weigh-in possible on Wednesday. I have drinking more water this past 2 weeks since my last bad weigh-in. It definitely takes effort. I have to actually try to get it into me. I hope that this is a habit that I will stick with after my appointment on Wednesday.
Anyways, time for bed.
P.S
It's now nearly 3 am. I guess I spoke too soon about it being time for bed. I am WIDE awake. I'm watching Bewitched on Netflix hoping soon to drift off. I started feeling hungry at about 1 am. Dr. Poon doesn't have rules about when to eat. So long as it is lean protein or leafy greens, you are free to eat it anytime. So I a satiated myself with some leftover turkey. I made the mistake of browsing some low carb dessert recipes on my cell phone. I got some great ideas that I am looking forward to trying. However, all that browsing made me hungry again. I didn't want to give into my sweet craving. I really wanted to get through my "I Messed Up" 2 weeks without having sweet snacks. Instead I had a handful of unsalted sunflower seeds and a Go Lightly butterscotch hard candy. The bad new is I think I've chipped my tooth just now. That's bad news. Not only will it be an expense I cannot afford right now, but also, as it has left my tooth feeling rather sharp, I fear I will never sleep! My tongue will not leave this sharp edge alone!
Time to try sleeping again. My husband has an early morning doctor's appointment and he would like me to go with him.
Jana
Sunday, 6 October 2013
I Messed up- Day TWELVE
hello,
Here are my "I messed up" numbers so far:
IMU1 IMU2 IMU3 IMU4 IMU5 IMU6 IMU7
W 168.8 168.6 167.8 167.8 167.0 166.6 165.6
BF% 39.2 38.9 38.5 39.7 41.3 38.5
H20% 44.3 44.6 44.8 44.0 42.8 44.8
Bflbs 66.1 65.2 64.6 66.2 68.8 63.8
TBW 74.7 74.8 75.1 73.8 71.3 74.1
IMU8 IMU9 IMU10 IMU11 IMU12
W 165.4 166.0 163.6 164.8 163.8
BF% 38.5 37.9 37.7 38.4
H20% 44.8 45.3 45.4 44.9
Bflbs 63.7 62.0 62.1 62.8
TBW 74.1 74.1 74.8 73.5
I'm still angry today. I tried very hard to put on a smile because today was my stepson's birthday and he certainly deserves a happy day. My husband has done a horrible job of balancing being a dad and being a husband this weekend. I have not been perfect either. Being a stepmom is very challenging. A little team work and understanding from my husband would go a long way.
Breakfast- 2 eggs scrambled with a little bit of cheese
Lunch- Iceburg lettuce with 2 tbsp. greek dressing
Dinner- turkey and broccoli salad
I have only had one glass of water today. I will try to drink a few litres between now and bed time. I might even make some tea.
We bought cake today to have for dessert. It looked delicious. I chose a small one so that there would not be any leftovers, but there are. It is hard to avoid eating cake. It is hard to face the fact that I cannot indulge in those foods without gaining weight. It's a sad reality, but it is my reality. I've seen the quote "nothing tastes as good as being thin" and I believe that. I would rather be healthy and attractive than indulge in sweets. I am 8 lbs away from my next goal. I feel so close to it. It is giving me strength to keep on task. I am actually looking forward to my next weigh-in at the Poon clinic. I'm curious to see how I have done over the past 2 weeks. I know I have done well but I want to see the numbers in black and white.
Jana (the evil-stepmother)
Here are my "I messed up" numbers so far:
IMU1 IMU2 IMU3 IMU4 IMU5 IMU6 IMU7
W 168.8 168.6 167.8 167.8 167.0 166.6 165.6
BF% 39.2 38.9 38.5 39.7 41.3 38.5
H20% 44.3 44.6 44.8 44.0 42.8 44.8
Bflbs 66.1 65.2 64.6 66.2 68.8 63.8
TBW 74.7 74.8 75.1 73.8 71.3 74.1
IMU8 IMU9 IMU10 IMU11 IMU12
W 165.4 166.0 163.6 164.8 163.8
BF% 38.5 37.9 37.7 38.4
H20% 44.8 45.3 45.4 44.9
Bflbs 63.7 62.0 62.1 62.8
TBW 74.1 74.1 74.8 73.5
I'm still angry today. I tried very hard to put on a smile because today was my stepson's birthday and he certainly deserves a happy day. My husband has done a horrible job of balancing being a dad and being a husband this weekend. I have not been perfect either. Being a stepmom is very challenging. A little team work and understanding from my husband would go a long way.
Breakfast- 2 eggs scrambled with a little bit of cheese
Lunch- Iceburg lettuce with 2 tbsp. greek dressing
Dinner- turkey and broccoli salad
I have only had one glass of water today. I will try to drink a few litres between now and bed time. I might even make some tea.
We bought cake today to have for dessert. It looked delicious. I chose a small one so that there would not be any leftovers, but there are. It is hard to avoid eating cake. It is hard to face the fact that I cannot indulge in those foods without gaining weight. It's a sad reality, but it is my reality. I've seen the quote "nothing tastes as good as being thin" and I believe that. I would rather be healthy and attractive than indulge in sweets. I am 8 lbs away from my next goal. I feel so close to it. It is giving me strength to keep on task. I am actually looking forward to my next weigh-in at the Poon clinic. I'm curious to see how I have done over the past 2 weeks. I know I have done well but I want to see the numbers in black and white.
Jana (the evil-stepmother)
Saturday, 5 October 2013
I Messed Up- Day ELEVEN
Hello,
I am so angry right now.
Here are my "I messed up" numbers so far:
IMU1 IMU2 IMU3 IMU4 IMU5 IMU6 IMU7
W 168.8 168.6 167.8 167.8 167.0 166.6 165.6
BF% 39.2 38.9 38.5 39.7 41.3 38.5
H20% 44.3 44.6 44.8 44.0 42.8 44.8
Bflbs 66.1 65.2 64.6 66.2 68.8 63.8
TBW 74.7 74.8 75.1 73.8 71.3 74.1
IMU8 IMU9 IMU10 IMU11
W 165.4 166.0 163.6 164.8
BF% 38.5 37.9 37.7
H20% 44.8 45.3 45.4
Bflbs 63.7 62.0 62.1
TBW 74.1 74.1 74.8
My husband was just incredibly rude, inconsiderate and basically a world class jerk. My step kids are here this weekend. My husband tends to try to be "Super Dad" when he gets the opportunity. In one way it's what I love about him. And in another way it can be very frustrating. Not that I can blame him. In terms of food which is the focus of this blog, he goes overboard when his kids are here. This morning he made stacks of French toast. So while I ate my scrambled eggs, I watched everyone else eat texas toast, dipped in eggs and slathered in butter and maple syrup. I found it frustrating, but as this diet is my deal, I tolerated it without complaint. For lunch he went overboard cooking hamburgers and hotdogs on the grill. Twice as many as were realistically needed. I had iceburg lettuce and eventually gave in and had a hamburger patty without the bun. As the table was being cleared, while I still sat at my seat (small dining room so when there are extra people joining us for dinner, the inside person is stuck in their seat unless the person at either end of the table lets them out), my husband announces that he bought chocolate chip cookies. He brings them to the table and passes the container around and everyone takes two. My stepson offers the container to me and then says "oh you can't have any right?" and everyone laughs. I stood up to leave the table and asked my husband to move his chair to let me by and he stubbornly sits in my way, looks me straight in the eye and takes a big bite of his cookie. Ugh. I'm so angry. It felt so disrespectful. My parents are alcoholics and my husband is considerate enough to not drink in front of them. I have no words.
Anyways, sorry for my rant.
Breakfast - 2 eggs scrambled
Lunch/dinner- hamburger patty, iceburg lettuce with a small amount of poppy seed dressing
Water- not very much yet- but I intend to drink more
coffee- 4-5 mugs
tea- probably
Overall I give myself a 4 for today. Considering what I am up against in terms of sabotagers and emotions I think I've done pretty well.
Jana =(
I am so angry right now.
Here are my "I messed up" numbers so far:
IMU1 IMU2 IMU3 IMU4 IMU5 IMU6 IMU7
W 168.8 168.6 167.8 167.8 167.0 166.6 165.6
BF% 39.2 38.9 38.5 39.7 41.3 38.5
H20% 44.3 44.6 44.8 44.0 42.8 44.8
Bflbs 66.1 65.2 64.6 66.2 68.8 63.8
TBW 74.7 74.8 75.1 73.8 71.3 74.1
IMU8 IMU9 IMU10 IMU11
W 165.4 166.0 163.6 164.8
BF% 38.5 37.9 37.7
H20% 44.8 45.3 45.4
Bflbs 63.7 62.0 62.1
TBW 74.1 74.1 74.8
My husband was just incredibly rude, inconsiderate and basically a world class jerk. My step kids are here this weekend. My husband tends to try to be "Super Dad" when he gets the opportunity. In one way it's what I love about him. And in another way it can be very frustrating. Not that I can blame him. In terms of food which is the focus of this blog, he goes overboard when his kids are here. This morning he made stacks of French toast. So while I ate my scrambled eggs, I watched everyone else eat texas toast, dipped in eggs and slathered in butter and maple syrup. I found it frustrating, but as this diet is my deal, I tolerated it without complaint. For lunch he went overboard cooking hamburgers and hotdogs on the grill. Twice as many as were realistically needed. I had iceburg lettuce and eventually gave in and had a hamburger patty without the bun. As the table was being cleared, while I still sat at my seat (small dining room so when there are extra people joining us for dinner, the inside person is stuck in their seat unless the person at either end of the table lets them out), my husband announces that he bought chocolate chip cookies. He brings them to the table and passes the container around and everyone takes two. My stepson offers the container to me and then says "oh you can't have any right?" and everyone laughs. I stood up to leave the table and asked my husband to move his chair to let me by and he stubbornly sits in my way, looks me straight in the eye and takes a big bite of his cookie. Ugh. I'm so angry. It felt so disrespectful. My parents are alcoholics and my husband is considerate enough to not drink in front of them. I have no words.
Anyways, sorry for my rant.
Breakfast - 2 eggs scrambled
Lunch/dinner- hamburger patty, iceburg lettuce with a small amount of poppy seed dressing
Water- not very much yet- but I intend to drink more
coffee- 4-5 mugs
tea- probably
Overall I give myself a 4 for today. Considering what I am up against in terms of sabotagers and emotions I think I've done pretty well.
Jana =(
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