T-4 Days to My Next Weigh-In

Hello,

I'm lying in bed.  Thinking back over the day I have had and the choices I made that were good, and also the choices I made which were not good.  Too many times today I told myself 'it's okay' and put something non-Poon approved into my mouth.  There is no excuse.  It is no one's battle but my own.  Having my step-kids here does make it more challenging, but I can do this.  My desire to lose weight is stronger than my desire to have junk food.  Tomorrow is a new day and I will make better choices tomorrow than what I have today.

Here are my numbers so far:

              T-7 Days    T-6 Days   T-5 Days   T-4Days
Weight      166.4       165.6          165.6         164.8
BF%            39.2       38.9             37.9           37.7
W%             44.3       44.6             45.3           45.4
Bflbs            65.2      64.4              62.7           62.1
TBW           73.7       73.9              75.0          74.8

The scale dropped a little more today.  But I'm afraid some of the choices I made today will compromise my weigh-in tomorrow morning.

Breakfast- 2 eggs scrambled
Lunch- Tossed salad with goat cheese

We went to my step-son's hockey game and stopped by the Tim Horton's drive thru on the way.  I ordered a coffee with cream while French Vanilla cappuccinos and timbits were also passed through our window- patting myself on the back for having self control in that instance.

Dinner- 2x salmon loins, tossed salad, coleslaw (while the rest of my family ate pepperoni pizza)

See what I am up against?  I tried so hard to resist the pizza, but alas I caved and peeled off about 6 very salty, very delicious pieces of pepperoni.

snack- while my family ate heaping bowls of pralines and cream icecream, I had 2 pieces of 90% dark chocolate.  Once again, I did my best to avoid the icecream, but sitting next to my husband while he ate his beside me was just too temping and I had 3 very small mouthfuls.

*SIGH*  Why oh why must it be so hard?  And why must there be so much temptation around me?  I truly hope to find a stronger resolve within myself.  I don't want to be a person who cannot resist theses unhealthy foods.  The old Jana would've eaten large portions of these foods with my family in the past.  So in that regard today was a victory.  But in truth, it almost felt like it was beyond my control tonight.  I felt like I could not have avoided eating those pepperonis or spoonful's of icecream at any cost.  I don't want to feel powerless to junk food.  I don't want potato chips, cookies or any such food to have any power over me.

Tomorrow is a new day.  A new opportunity to prove that I am stronger than my food addiction.  Tomorrow is another day to lead by example.  I hope that the scale will be kind to me. 

Good night, eat right,
Jana