I Messed Up - Day SIX

Hello folks,

Here are my "I messed up" numbers so far:

            IMU1     IMU2     IMU3     IMU4     IMU5     IMU6

W         168.8     168.6      167.8     167.8      167.0      166.6
BF%                     39.2        38.9       38.5        39.7       41.3
H20%                   44.3        44.6       44.8        44.0       42.8
Bflbs                     66.1        65.2       64.6       66.2        68.8
TBW                     74.7        74.8       75.1       73.8        71.3

I am very happy to see 166.6 this morning on my scale.  That is a new number for me.  I am finally moving forward on my journey and am not just playing catch up.  I'm sure you can see why I don't trust my scale's calculations of body fat percentage and water.  If I am to believe it, then I am down 4 lbs of water since Saturday and up 4 lbs of fat.  I just don't believe that to be the case.

Today has been a very stressful day.  I look forward to going to bed and waking up tomorrow to a new month and a clean slate.  My husband and I saw another doctor today regarding our infertility.  The prognosis wasn't good.  I'm trying to focus on my weight loss and the things that I CAN control.  However, it hurts my heart knowing that becoming a mother is beyond my control.  I'm hoping for some divine intervention. 

Breakfast- 2 eggs
Lunch- left over broccoli salad
Dinner- spinach salad (spinach, goat cheese, sunflower seeds, egg, poppy dressing)
Diet Pepsi

I came home this afternoon and slept most the afternoon away.  Sleeping is often my answer to stress.  I realize I used to eat when I was stressed.  Thank God for this diet calling me to be more aware of what I am putting into my mouth.  I wish I exercised to handle stress.  One day. 

Today I give myself a 4.  I've eaten as well as I intend to eat on this plan.  I have not drank enough water but I intend to drink more now as the night goes on. 

Tomorrow will be my 7th day back on Phase 1.  I feel good.  I feel disciplined.  I once again feel excited for my morning weigh-ins.  My goal is to be 163.0 on my scale the morning of my next weigh-in at Dr. Poon's office.  That should be about 161.0 on their scale.  Is it crazy that I am excited for my next weigh in and to see the body composition print out?  I already feel like I have redeemed myself and I have another week to put the icing on the cake.

Off to drink some water,
Jana