hello folks!
I've discovered that I am one of those people who are NEVER satisfied. I'm firmly in the 160s now. You might recall from previous posts, that once I made it to the 160s, my life would be awesome and I would be oh so happy! I lied, to you and to myself.
Clearly I have some work to do on my attitude. To be truthful, I have work to do on my attitude towards a lot of things, but for the purpose of this blog I'll just focus on the fact that my attitude towards myself kinda sucks.
The truth is I am down 23 lbs. Some days that number seems staggering. 23 lbs! That's heavy. I would not like to walk down to the corner store carrying 23 lbs. Therefore, I should be thrilled. The fact that it has taken me longer than I would like to lose those 23 lbs really does not matter. I have the rest of my life to be a healthy weight. Other days, I beat myself up. "Only 23 lbs? I have been doing this diet for 14 weeks, I should be, at the very least, -28 lbs." How do I stop saying such mean things to myself? I'm very good at celebrating the accomplishments of others, but my own are a lot harder to acknowledge. I am proud of myself. Don't get me wrong. I used to work as a circuit trainer at Curves. And I have seen the struggles of women, with regards to their weight, first hand. I know losing weight is hard. And I'm doing it. If any of my members were losing at the rate I am losing, I would be their biggest supporter. I hope I can soon starting being more supportive of myself.
On a side note, this has been a very stressful couple of weeks. I won't bore you with all the details as I am constantly reminded that everyone has problems. And mine, are by no means bigger than everyone else's. It's fair to say, that this has been the worst year I have had since losing my dad 10 years ago. My husband and I have been joking lately that someone has put a curse on us. Day by day, it certainly has been feeling that way. This is another area where I need to change my attitude. I need to remember to find the bright side. The bright side of losing 23 lbs during the most stressful period of time in recent memory, is that I did not gain 23 lbs. It is not uncommon for me to eat my way through a tough time. This diet is saving me by giving me something positive to focus on.
My results so far:
June 6 June 26 July 17 July 31 Aug 14 Aug 28 Sept 11
Weight 188 178 175.6 173.4 171.5 169.0 165.5
BMI 32.4 30.6 30.1 29.8 29.4 29.0 28.4
Fat% 40.1 37.6 38.6 38.5 37.4 36.9 35.7
Fat Mass 75.6 67.0 67.8 66.8 64.0 62.5 59.0
TBW 82.5 81.5 79.0 78.0 78.5 78.0 78.0
I was very pleased yesterday when I went for my weigh-in. I lost 3.5 lbs of fat. I can definitely feel that on my body. I wish there was more of a difference in my belly, but that will come. My body water weight has not been changing much. I guess I need to cut even more sodium if I want to see changes in that area. I'm not sure I have the desire to cut my sodium any further. This morning my weight on my scale was up a little. I weighed in at 168.8. I know its water. Last night for dinner we had lean ground beef with taco seasoning (husband had tacos, I had it over salad greens), I used the reduced sodium taco seasoning, but I am not kidding myself into thinking that it is low sodium. None the less, not worrying about the scale this morning.
My results also show that I have 59 lbs of body fat. From my previous experience working at Curves, I used to weigh regularly as well as measure my body fat percentage using a similar impedance device such as the Tanita scale at Dr. Poon. I had always aimed to get my Body Fat percentage below 30%. I never quite got there. I'm going to get there this time. I recall having my lbs of body fat around 55 lbs. I'm excited at how close I am getting to those numbers. It will be fantastic when I get there and then blow those numbers out of the water!
Have a great day folks. Thanks for listening
Jana
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