Friday

hello,
I must be losing my focus.  I forgot to weigh first thing this morning. To be fair, I was distracted.  My mom and step-dad dropped in early.  So it wasn't until after they left, and after half a pot of coffee before I stepped on the scale.  I assume I would've been a little less first thing.

My results this week:
                Wed.    Thurs      Fri
Weight    164.0    163.2   163.2
bf%                       38.4      37.4
w%                       44.9       45.6
bflbs                     62.6       61.0
tbw                       73.2       74.4

So anyways, I did alright today.  I could've done better but anyways, it is what it is.  I tried.
Breakfast: 1 egg and egg white scrambled with 1 light babybell cheese
Lunch:  1 turkey sausage
dinner: stirfry (beef, green peppers, onion, mushroom, celery)
Snack: glass of wine (white - not allowed) and porkrinds

I really didn't want the glass of white wine but I gave into peer pressure.  A friend came to visit today and brought it with him.  I offered him some and he kept doing the "if you will have some with me".  It was from a mutual friend' wedding.  Anyways, I caved in effort to be a half decent hostess.  I'm really not sure how else to handle that situation.  I guess I could've just opened it, poured him a glass and refused to have any myself.  I don't know.  My other indiscretion today was that I added some high sodium seasoning to my pork rinds. 

Tomorrow morning is another trip to the fertility centre.  I'm hoping tomorrow does not cost anything.  I'm getting so freaked out about money.
Anyways, I'm off to bed.
Good night, eat right
Jana

Thursday

Hello,
This morning began with a coffee to go and an early morning trip to the fertility centre.  I stepped on the scale before we left.  My results so far this week:

                Wed.    Thurs
Weight    164.0    163.2
bf%                       38.4
w%                       44.9
bflbs                     62.6
tbw                       73.2

Our visit to the fertility centre was pretty straight forward.  I did an ultra sound, blood test and spoke briefly to the nurse.  The worst part of the visit was an increase in the amount of fertility drugs I need. It meant I had to pay 486.00 that was unexpected and unbudgeted.  So I have been spending the entire day fretting about money and how I will cover everything that needs to be paid in the next few days.  I KNOW things have a way of working out and all will be okay.

Breakfast: 1 egg and egg whites
Lunch: 1 deviled egg, babybell cheese (light)
Dinner: ground beef with taco seasoning, 6 olives

Feeling very tired today.  I'm heading to bed now.  Trying to quiet my mind and put all my worries away.  Focus on positive thoughts.  The universe really will provide for me.  My finances will be protected.  A baby will be given this cycle and all will be well.  The universe has already provided me with a body that is nearly 30 lbs lighter to help me carry a baby. Everything is sure to fall into place.

Good night,
Jana

      

Countdown to Weigh-in Wednesday

Hello,
Well here I am.  I am ready to be transparent for the next 7 days because the scale is being unkind to me.  I have so much going on right now that I am not going to beat myself up for the numbers.  But just the same, keeping a daily record seems to help so-

My weight this morning was 164.0.  I forgot to check all the other numbers.  So I will do that tomorrow.

Breakfast: 1 egg and egg whites, scrambled
Lunch: 2 deviled eggs, babybell light cheese
Dinner: Asian salad, fish fillet

I have eaten reasonably well today.  I drank lots of coffee, and about 1 litre of water.
I have begun taking fertility drugs.  I have to inject them into my abdomen every evening.  The drug is intended to increase the number of eggs that will mature so that when I am inseminated there are 'more targets to hit'.  It should increase our odds of successfully getting pregnant this month.  (It also increases our chances of having multiples ie, twins).  I'm not sure if it is related to the drugs but I have been EXHAUSTED.  I have next to no energy.  All I want to do is sleep.  The drug may also have something to do with few extra pounds on the scale.  Also, my fertility specialist has REDUCED my thyroid medication.  That may also have something to do with the fatigue and possibly the weight.  I'm not sure.
  The fertility issue is obviously stressful.  I am trying to stay positive.  I really cannot imagine it not working.  I am however nervous about money.  Everything is so expensive and I have stretched things fairly thin when it comes to covering all the expenses.  So there is that stress.  There is also the stress of the countless doctors appointments.  For those of you unfamiliar with fertility treatments- we have to go to the doctors every other day for blood test and ultrasound.  Closer to ovulation we will need to go everyday.
So as for my weightloss journey, it has been a nice distraction for the past few months from the fertility journey that started it all.  But for the time being, I think I am going to be a little distracted from the weightloss with my primary focus being back on the fertility.  Please send some positive vibes out into the universe on my husband's and my behalf- we so badly would like to become pregnant.

Good night, eat right
Jana

Week 24 Results

hello folks-
So I'm hoping that if you are reading this than I am really hoping that you did NOT read my last post.  It would seem that perhaps the scale in the clinic is not all that accurate or reliable.  I mean sure, overall I think it's fine.  But I think something happened with my last weigh-in that gave me over the top fat loss readings that I believe were likely inaccurate. 
Here are my results so far and you can probably see what I mean.

  June 6    June 26        July 17       July 31    Aug 14      Aug 28   Sept 11 
Weight     188.6     178              175.6        173.4           171.5       169.0     165.5   
BMI         32.4        30.6             30.1          29.8              29.4          29.0      28.4     
Fat%        40.1        37.6             38.6          38.5              37.4           36.9     35.7     
Fat Mass  75.6        67.0             67.8          66.8              64.0           62.5     59.0     
TBW        82.5        81.5             79.0          78.0              78.5           78.0     78.0

               Sept 25    Oct 9    Oct 23   Nov 6   Nov 20
Weight     167.0     162.6    161.6     160.8    159.6
BMI           28.7       27.9     27.7       27.6       27.4
Fat %         37.5       34.7     34.8       31.6       35.2
Fat Mass    62.5       56.4     56.2       50.8       56.2
TBW          76.5       77.8     77.2       80.6       75.6

So not to dwell so much on the numbers- but I think it's fairly clear that my results on November 6 probably were not all that accurate.  My period is due in 2 days and I can feel that my body is retaining water.  My breasts are tender etc.  So I find it unlikely that I have lost 5 lbs of water weight and yet gained 6 lbs of fat all while losing 1.2 lbs overall on the scale.  So anyways, I'm just going to choose to ignore the rest of details and focus on the fact that I am down another pound.  It's a small victory but a victory none the less.  And hey!  I am in the 150s!!!

I bought a few new Poon friendly products today.  I tried the Lily's chocolate biscotti.  Yum!  I also bought some pork rinds.  I didn't think they would be my thing, but I just totally binged on them and they are a great alternative to potato chips. 

Well, it's been a long day.  My husband and I have a busy month ahead.  We are starting a course of fertility treatments.  Please say a prayer for us.  I want so badly to be a mother. 
Good night, eat right!
Jana

Week 22 Dr Poon Results

hello!

Wow, what a weigh-in day!  I'm surprised with my results today.  I was 161.8 this morning on my home scale which is a new number for me!  I figured I would be down about a pound at my in-office weigh-in this morning.  So anyways, here are my in- office results to date:


                June 6    June 26        July 17       July 31    Aug 14      Aug 28   Sept 11 
Weight     188.6     178              175.6        173.4           171.5       169.0     165.5   
BMI         32.4        30.6             30.1          29.8              29.4          29.0      28.4     
Fat%        40.1        37.6             38.6          38.5              37.4           36.9     35.7     
Fat Mass  75.6        67.0             67.8          66.8              64.0           62.5     59.0     
TBW        82.5        81.5             79.0          78.0              78.5           78.0     78.0 

               Sept 25    Oct 9    Oct 23   Nov 6
Weight     167.0     162.6    161.6     160.8
BMI           28.7       27.9     27.7       27.6
Fat %         37.5       34.7     34.8       31.6
Fat Mass    62.5       56.4     56.2       50.8
TBW          76.5       77.8     77.2       80.6

Total Results since Last weigh-in:

-0.8 total lbs
BMI is down 0.1 points
Body fat percentage is down -3.2%
Body Fat Weight -5.4 lbs!!!
Total Body water +3.4lbs

Total results OVERALL
-27.8 total lbs
BMI is down 4.8 points
Body fat percentage is down 8.5 %
Body Fat Weight -24.8 lbs
Total Body water -1.9 lbs

So I'm very pleased with my weigh-in results today.  They were unexpected. I had no idea that my body fat had come down so significantly.  It was such a pleasant surprise.  I think I am within 10 lbs of my goal weight.  Once my weight is about between 150 and 146 my BMI will be in the 25 range.  I'm getting close and that is very exciting for me.  I'm very excited that my body fat percentage has dropped to 31.6! 

So the journey continues.  I have a ways to go yet, and I need to maintain my focus.  My husband and I are going away this weekend.  I plan to enjoy myself.  I am going to try to avoid caesars.  Perhaps if I stick to drinking wine I won't have the water retention that I so often experience.  But I do love caesars so I am not sure what will happen.  Either way, whatever happens this weekend I will get back on track the moment we arrive home and keep striving for a BMI of 25.  I'll get there.

Jana

1 DAY...

Hello folks,

Well tomorrow is weigh-in day.  I'm not expecting huge results.  If I am lucky, a loss of a pound or so.  Fingers crossed.

My numbers so far are:

                -7 Days   -6 Days   -5 Days    -1 Day
Weight      162.8      162.6       162.6      162.2
BF%            36.6       36.2         37.2        37.0
W%             46.6       46.5         45.8        45.9
Bflbs            59.6      58.8         60.4        60.0
TBW           75.6       75.6         74.5        74.4

As you can see from my posts, I got a little distracted this week.  For the most part I stayed on track.  I just had several late nights which left me less than motivated to blog. 
I ate according to plan each day with the exception of Sunday evening when my husband chose a Chinese Buffet for dinner.  I made reasonably Poon friendly choices.  I ate mostly protein and salad.  I avoided all carbohydrates such as egg rolls, rice etc.  However my protein choices were often coated in batter, deep fried and covered in sodium and sugar rich sauces.  I skipped the desserts all together.  All in all, I di my best.  The scale did  go up Monday and Tuesday by a couple of pounds , but has come back down today.

On another note, my husband and I joined a co-ed hockey team!!  I am so excited about it.  We had our first game last night.  I was terrible!  I used to be a very good hockey player, but that was 15+ years ago.  Now I am fat, out of shape and old.  But I'm also proud of myself.  If I were the Jana you first met back in June would be too self conscious to walk into a locker room full of men and start undressing.   Don't get me wrong, I'm still modest, and changed my clothes as quickly and discreetly as possible, but at least it wasn't the most mortifying experience ever.  I had just assumed that the girls would have their own change room.  Not the case, and not the end of the world.   I am a hurting woman today!  Out of shape does not begin to describe the aches and pains and strains I'm feeling.  But I am excited.  I am going to get better, stronger, faster and it is going to be fun.

As for tomorrow's weigh-in, I'm not going to stress too much. I think I'll be down a little which is better than nothing.

Good night, eat right
Jana

5 Days...

Hello

Brr, I'm cold and wet and ready for bed!  It's not a very nice night out there!  Overall today was a pretty good day.  I strayed a little with some irresistible trail mix, just a small amount.

My numbers so far are:

                -7 Days   -6 Days   -5 Days
Weight      162.8      162.6       162.6
BF%            36.6       36.2         37.2
W%             46.6       46.5         45.8
Bflbs            59.6      58.8         60.4
TBW           75.6       75.6         74.5

I was quite happy to see that the scale didn't go up after last night's Halloween cheat.  But now that I do the math on the body fat percentages, I'm really not too sure what the real damage was.  Those numbers are not all that reliable. 

Breakfast- 2 eggs scrambled
Lunch- superfood salad with poppyseed dressing
Dinner- rotisserie chicken, superfood salad, laughing cow cheese
snack- trail mix
Diet Pepsi

I read a lot about weight loss in order to find motivation.  A lot of the information out there is common knowledge, or at least some what intuitive.  What I mean is, I think we all more or less know what we need to do in order to lose weight.  We know we need to move more, eat less junk etc.  Knowing and doing are two different things.  I read this information, not because I don't know it, but because for me, it fires me up and motivates me.  There is a lot of discussion about weighing oneself every day.  Most people on the message boards say not to do it.  They say put the scale away.  Check weekly.  Check only at in-office appointments.  This does not work for me.  I have struggled with my weight for years.  One thing that I know to be true, is that my weight has only ever gone up when I have not monitored it regularly and closely.  I'm sensible enough to know that fluctuations on the scale are normal.  Fluctuations do not concern me or discourage me.  I met a lot of women at Curves who did not want to be weighed and measured.  We always encouraged these ladies to remember that you cannot manage what you do not measure.  And for me, measuring every day keeps me accountable to myself.  By journaling these numbers I can also celebrate the losses as they come.  Were it not for these posts, I would feel as though I were not losing at all since my losses are so slow.  It's not about weighing every day or not, but about keeping a level head.  Its about monitoring the trends.  Its about being accountable.  I intend to keep myself accountable from here on out. 

Good night, eat right
Jana