Week 28 on Dr. Poon and the Beginning of the -15 lbs Journey

hello,

I've recently returned from my weigh-in.  Here are the results, although they are not extremely fascinating.

                June 6    June 26        July 17       July 31    Aug 14      Aug 28   Sept 11 
Weight     188.6     178              175.6        173.4           171.5       169.0     165.5   
BMI         32.4        30.6             30.1          29.8              29.4          29.0      28.4     
Fat%        40.1        37.6             38.6          38.5              37.4           36.9     35.7     
Fat Mass  75.6        67.0             67.8          66.8              64.0           62.5     59.0     
TBW        82.5        81.5             79.0          78.0              78.5           78.0     78.0

               Sept 25    Oct 9    Oct 23   Nov 6   Nov 20   Dec 18
Weight     167.0     162.6    161.6     160.8    159.6      159.0
BMI           28.7       27.9     27.7       27.6       27.4        27.3
Fat %         37.5       34.7     34.8       31.6       35.2        34.6
Fat Mass    62.5       56.4     56.2       50.8       56.2        55.0
TBW          76.5       77.8     77.2       80.6       75.6       76.2

Total results OVERALL
-29.6 total lbs
BMI is down 5.1 points
Body fat percentage is down 5.5 %
Body Fat Weight -20.6 lbs
Total Body water -6.3 lbs

My weight on my home scale this morning was 160.4.  This is a new number for me.  I do not have an another official weigh-in at the clinic for 3 weeks due to the holiday season.  I have 11 weeks before my birthday.  I have a goal of losing 15 lbs by then.  Therefore I should like to lose about 1.5 lbs per week.  I feel that is a very reasonable goal.  But it will take effort and commitment.  But I am ready to achieve it.

Breakfast- 1 egg and egg white with Allegro cheddar cheese
Lunch- baby spinach with Green Goddess dressing
snacks- 1 sugar-free Reese peanut butter cup and approx. 10 sugar free jelly beans

As you can probably tell, I splurged today at the Dr. Poon's clinic store.  I bought several 'treats' to help me stay on track and committed over the holidays.  I have no doubt that the holidays will have temptations but so long as I have my own low-carb options to eat I know I will be able to stay on track.  The trick will be to only eat them when I truly would like to have a treat and not because I am bored and emotional.

Jana

Broken Hearted

hello,
I'm feeling broken hearted.  I was unable to make it to the clinic today for my pregnancy blood test because of bad weather.  But my period arrived this afternoon and brought an end to my hopes of being pregnant.  I am trying so hard to keep strong, to keep my chin up and to carry on, but it's so hard.
I don't know how to put this disappointment behind me and move forward.  I don't want to allow it to ruin the holiday season.  The moment I compose myself something triggers me and I am in tears once again.
I intend to proceed by putting everything I have into working on myself.  I have quite a bit of work to do.  I thought that I was an optimist, but the gloomy thoughts in my head are proving to me that I still have a lot of work to do on my self-talk.  I need to revisit some books I've read over the years that have helped with positive thinking.  I also plan to not turn down any invitations.  I know I need to get out and enjoy life and not dwell in my self-pitty.  I also need to laugh.  I will try to seek out humor and comedy. 
So it's time to set a new goal.  I would like very much to weigh 145 lbs on my 35th birthday in March.  I am going to strive to attain this goal and welcome the distraction that it will hopefully bring.  Fittingly I have a Dr. Poon weigh-in tomorrow.  I won't have great results but I don't think I have gained anything this month since my last weigh-in, and considering the month I have had I celebrate this as a victory.
I need strength to get me through this latest disappointment.
I will see you tomorrow with my weigh-in results.
Good night,
Jana

Fertility and Weight Loss Emotional Roller Coaster

hello everyone,

I dropped off the face of the world.  I'm back.  I have been such an emotional wreck this past month.  To catch us up.  I did a cycle of fertility treatments.  I ended up cancelling my last Dr. Poon weigh-in because as fate would have it, the appointment conflicted with my fertility 'procedure'.  I did however step on the scale that day and I believe I would have been 'up' about 3 pounds.  I blame the 3 pounds on the daily injections of drugs, stress, and some poor food choices.
On Wednesday the 4th of December I had an IUI procedure done.  Tomorrow, I will go for a blood test to see if we have successfully conceived.  The past 2 weeks have been incredibly stressful and emotional.  Trying to keep a positive attitude has proved to be incredibly difficult for me however I really am trying. 
I have lost focus this past month in terms of the Dr. Poon diet.  I remain up 3 lbs.  I have a weigh-in this coming Wednesday and based on the results of my blood test tomorrow I will either be moving forward with the diet with a new commitment and a desperation to have something to focus on, or I will be proceeding as a pregnant woman who wants to eat healthfully for the baby or babies growing inside her.  I pray its the latter of the 2 options and I ask one last time you also include me in your prayers.  I have never wanted something so badly in all my life.
I will keep you posted.
Jana